Lord Jesus

I am in pain so much Lord because I have sinned so earnestly in want to have sexual satisfaction. I long for it so badly Lord and when the feeling is not there, I want to go search for it. I pray Lord that I would have the patience to grow in this area and to allow you to work patiently in my life. Currently, I can get aroused by Annie but I do not really like her personality that much right now.

Betty is seriously a person who needs to be a little more open to what I have been doing. I think she totally didn't make the right decision with deleting me from facebook. It causes a lot of curiosity as to what really happened. I think that I'm in a large learning curve. I really don't like it when people tell me to do things. I should just allow you God to make me more sensible.

I really would like to have a job and be more adventurous. I need someone like you to bless me with all these desires. I also still want to be taller and have more muscles, but ultimately it's just to be able to forget about the past by doing something positive about it.

I sometimes can sense that when I am asked about things, I don't really want to reply with the truth. I can be really outspoken about it and make reasons to not to feel down on myself. I think I made a feel careless decisions such as signing up for the Omni Biz Sol, Tech pros, and Magic Kids. I pray Lord that you would help me to be decent in my trials here. That you Lord would bless me with the needed money in tough times. I want to suffer for the right reasons.

Lord about Annie, I want to resolve the situation in a mature manner and end up just being great friends with her. I pray Lord that things would just continually get better and that no sexual attraction would block me from trying to get to know her better. I think with the sexual attraction, I'll just let it ride naturally. I don't want to be shy with her and just be friendly.

I need to be more accepting of Annie Lord, but there are so many things that I disapprove of with her. I pray Lord that you would help me to accept her for who she is. I will pray more about this topic as I write it all down. I am currently not so sure what I am praying about as I have so much clutter underneath. I think this is great that I am writing to you about this now.