Necessary details

The meaning of this title is rather cheesy because it was designed to be an emotive. Everything in this book is designed for the purpose of getting people to feel something, whether it is guilt or happiness or laughter. Anger is something I never understood in others. I so understand in myself though, but not really in others. I believe life requires making some guesses and going about adjusting from making these assumptions. Without assumptions, we will never be able to change our bad beliefs. By assuming and then receiving a contradiction, we are practicing logic. People don't like to be judged because they don't want others thinking about the bad things they are doing in their life. It's like they want to cover up what makes them feel like a lost cause. These people are like really sensitive to many issues dealing with people and want to be sentimental and vicarious to those who need help more than them. It's like they feel people can make a difference in life by working hard. They feel that they are making a difference in other people's lives, but something inside them is driving them to anger, frustration, and motivation with lust. These people are just plain wierd in a sense and are like the bad boys and bad girls you do not want to make good friends with sometimes. They are the ones who you have to live with in a love and hate relationship, unfortunately if we could love them all the time, it would be so wonderful.
Getting back to the basics is a concept I would love to refuse but can't. I would prefer feeling good all the time and confident about life but my emotions are sometimes unstable from getting worn out with hard work. I try the best I can though to be hip, but the influences that go into my head have caused me to shape into a person I don't want to be. I need to fight with principles in life, if I am going to survive with a strong head. Everyone likes rationality in life because without it, the world won't ever make sense. The ones who want to lose themselves in a messy world are the ones who are destined to fall. A good question I have to know with the answer is if people can feel something while rationalizing. Some hide their emotions as best as possible and show it only when they want to express anger. Some people are fickle and unpredictable to a sense of never understanding them. Many people have done cost and analysis with people to make a good rational decision of judgement. Without calculating the good things in life, one will never truly know what they are looking for. Lust drives people to want more and only desire as the scriptures explain. This desire itself is their true essence of being and if it does not follow the Godly principles of the Bible, then it is faulty. Faulty lust consumes people's lives and drains rational development. What is faulty lust is any desire that is considerably wrong in general. It is very difficult for people sometimes to know this limit. They have made a philosophical statement in their heads, which is very simple and twisted it to make it suit their needs.
They probably know it is wrong if the desires they feel were infringed upon them. What I mean is, criminals don't like other criminals. They keep lusting and this form consumes their entire bodies. It engulfs them and leads them straight to marching into the grave. Lust is a scary scenario for those who analyze it and understand it.

My Reasons for Mood Swings

This is an interesting topic for me because I get to talk about my human nature and psyche as a leader. I sometimes do become in a deeply troubling state. What I mean is, I get pretty angry sometimes for the silliest reasons. I expect people to do what they say sometimes, and if I don't get the result I was visualizing then I get pretty intensively mad. I think it is the most normal pet peeve for everyone, unless they don't really care to trust another individual. Trusting people is a very bad thing to do in general. I should never have done this to a whole great deal and only to an acceptable level of trust. It is so because by placing my undivided heart on a few individuals, who I really needed in my life. These people are Margarita and Mike. They really said they would be trying some things, and I really felt happy when they told me but when they told me they were busy, I then became a little troubled. I was a little uncertain about how to react. By becoming angry for awhile towards the end and at the times of finals, I started doing things by conceptualizing the blameworthy things of human nature. What I mean is, I found things that I felt were angering and distubring in people. I didn't like people lying and teasing people because of lies. This thought occurred from people not showing up to the meetings. I became frustrated and the only thing that really drove me to anger was the thought of people doing things to hurt the development of CSS. I found meetings to be a very crucial effect in everything dealing with CSS. A club is basically a gathering of people. Without people showing up, I sometimes became a little sad inside and nervous. I was also sometimes a little angry. I had times of wanting to give up and to a point I did give up. I kept trying though no matter what. No matter how much I was sinning by staying unfocused with everything in life, school, and God. I kept praying for forgiveness from God because I really believe in Jesus Christ. I believed that by simply believing in Jesus Christ and accepting him as sovereign in my life, I would become transformed into a better person. I have deep regrets of some of the things I did with this club, but overall, I feel happy for the things that I never expected to happen.
I developed a small team of willing people. That was enough to get something started and motivated me to try super hard. I had great advice from people, who I never expected to help out. I think it is this sense of doing something fun and having some kicks that got these people together at this meeting. I became happy again. I also became worried for people who I knew wanted to care for this club and do something about it. I became upset at myself for not being a hundred percent on task with everything because I always saw important issues flying before my nose. I just couldn't do it because I wasn't sure about the status quo of people showing up to a meeting. If only there were enough people and friends supporting me in general, then I would be able to make this club into a more wonderful state of being for everyone else.
The motivation was not always there for me to try very hard. Sometimes I had feelings of wanting to burn down buildings because I couldn't do anything about it. I wanted to be a great leader in this club. I wanted to represent everyone in Computer Science. I would get discouraged left and right from everyone. They would think of me as like this short kid with good ideas and that since I was not American enough, I wouldn't be able to do anything. I then lost confidence in myself. I lost happiness and had lack of control and felt like I was going nowhere. All of this, because people didn't show up to the meetings I expected people to show up at. The greatest people I admire are those who made an effort to show up. without those people, I would never have been able to lead for a greater direction in this club.

Bantering Opinions

The CS majors who never tried to show up for a club meeting are dumb people. They probably even don't want to learn to spell hard words left to right. They study really hard and hate their major at the same time. These people are pretty wierd in general because they don't know how to spend their time even more wisely. They would prefer finding the easy way out at all times. It's like they have a desire to do something and only that desire is what they have. That desire is only what carries them, and they still fail at the end. These people do not deserve to be in a wonderful club. They do not have to come join us, either. These CS majors claim they are busy, like all uninteresting sisters say to their brothers. If people have one hour to spare, then why do they never show up. It's because they don't want to show up. It's because they feel that the club is dumb and going nowhere. These people who never show up have a different life that they don't want to share because they feel it will be for the worst. They feel they will become like the biggest rejects by showing up for CSS meetings. Something causes them to forget about everything because their mind is set upon some fleshly desires, which prevent them from remembering. These CS majors do not deserve to come and interact with the cool members, and they will never find the number one spot in their lives. These so-called busy people probably spend most of their times sleeping in and not wanting to do anything else.
These people are so lazy they would prefer not programming anything fun in a course, if time and the instructor allowed them to. The worst CS majors are those who don't want to get along with all the other CS majors. They prefer staying away from their major as much as possible because they don't know what they are doing and are scared of the future that will haunt upon them. They feel that CSS is like the most cheesiest club to have ever formed. They don't think it will succeed and help them out in their careers. They think it should never have formed, and they feel that the worst is about to come because once the right people leave, they will not know what to do. Life becomes so hard for them sometimes because they have to study for other general education courses. They feel missing out on some activities CSS has planned will make their life a lot better by giving them time to do something else for catching up with their studies. They think this is a better outcome for both the leaders and themselves. They feel they will never have to practice talking to people in a class. They think if they keep their mouths shut for good then nothing will make them show up. They don't think CSS has talented people because they want something or someone to follow. They need a leader in their lives, and they prefer not being that leader because time does not permit them to.
These CS majors want a good advisor with their lives and need to have a good connection with everyone in their lives dealing with CS. They can't find this because they don't want to make an effort to show up for a CSS meeting.

Club essentials

This topic will get a little boring for the moment because noone really cares about us right now. I hated doing powerpoints because I hate Microsoft for now. I don't like using someone else's software, especially if you can create your own. It's like it is really hard to become enlightened with new techniques and concepts if an organization hogs their code. This isn't really right for an interested student. The club started for programmers. I changed the direction of this club by making more breathing room for different individuals to try us out. What I mean is, I have been trying to get the Science Council to participate with us. They didn't help out all year long, which made me pretty mad. I quit going to their stupid meetings. The only way I am going to be able to do a lot better this year is be more confident and pick out social events. I find it a little funny how we never initiated stuff for girls to have some fun in. What I mean is, we never attracted enough women to our meetings. Being unmarried, we will need to have a little fun engaging with a potential soul mate on the premises of socializing alone. It's normal to be attracted to one another, but it's evil to become very intimate with one another before marriage. The Biblical saying goes, when you have a lot of passion with a man or woman [speaking to both genders] you should get married and quit worrying about the right age of getting married. If not, bad lies can occur and so my prayers are with those who struggle greatly.
We are going to do a quite of lot of engaging socially with girls. The majority of us are guys in this club so the CS women will benefit as well. Hopefully no slime balls will ever come to this meeting that happens. Let's just forget about the stressful issues of programming and just organize stuff to have fun in going to. I don't really care for thinking about making this club an academic one. Leave that recognition to a resume at an Honor's Club. We are no honor's club, period. We won't ever be able to make this transition because we attract everyone at all ages and all grades. Nobody has to remember CSS as a computer science club anymore. It is just CSS and people can make all the funny euphemistic acronyms they want. I care a whole lot, of course for all the bad insults people will make about us. It won't stop and so we can only hope for the best and pray for those things to stop.
Peeking into society, a lot of people are genetically evil. They are like walking robots falling down while following people as a lemming. What I mean is, people lead themselves to their own destruction with drugs and alcohol. It's very dumb and stupid and expletives. It's about a great time to pray for these things to end. The world is not going to fall apart today, but tomorrow one will never know when a person creates peace in the Middle East. These leaders in the Middle East are pretty scary. Yassar Arafat died and people were like wanting to be buried with him. I don't want that to happen to me. I want to be a representative of Christ and fair reason. Of course, leadership is important to a club, but bad leadership is what members always avoid, such as me. Out of the twenty members, on the average seven thought I was a bad leader. I suppose I didn't do too bad because I did grab the attention of the majority.
What I was originally looking for was someone who could overpower us into making a difference. I wanted someone to tell me what to do and to give me support on doing something. I needed to follow someone who had a great sense of direction. I did not find this until late in the school year, where everything gradually fell apart and glued back together. It is sort of an oxymoron because it is subjective based. The thing went up and down every year because I didn't know what to expect and how to go about it. What I mean is, the club sometimes froze and started moving again with all these years there was this club. The Bits & Chips is pretty much an old version of CSS. We aren't that knowledgable with the old parts anymore because the world changed very rapidly. Back then, it was all about getting good grades and having peope come in to tell stories. This time has changed because Cal Poly accepts people with low standards now. A lot of life is at stake here because a lot of people are struggling to make an end's meet.
We started out with a zero amount of experience because the main objective of seeing growth in a club never happened. People hate low grade stuff in general both spiritually and physically. I don't know if the CSS club is a gathering for a lot of momma boys. There has been quite a sentiment for me in running this club unsuccessfully. It does not matter what the results were because the experience we all should have gained is priceless.