I'm off to let my mind loose again, but not so much. I've realized that my comfort zone with people is intact. Unfortunately, for Chris my brother, I constantly hear him bicker about how his heart is not into it. He tells me about how he wants to be vulnerable to people. I think he mainly has a calling to go out witness for Christ to anybody. It's a shame that we all have our bad moments, but what makes it great is how those who stand out have this great calling in their lives. I can't really give into great details to support this point, but it feels clearly evident to me. A famous musician has passion to communicate to the audience with his instrument and to explore deeper the imaginative drives of making music. Josh McDowell writes so talentedly about his life's testimony and in a way to allow for the Holy Spirit to minister to his readers.
I believe so greatly that God has given each and one of His believers a gift to be accountable for. It may be common or unique depending on our individual experiences with the Holy Spirit. When I meet up with some worldly believers, I observe how some let out tears. I'm not too sure what it is, but it may be a moment of revealing their true self. It's important to allow the Holy Spirit to minister to us, but whether we are filled with him or not we need to get daily bread. Like going hungry physically, we could end up going spiritually hungry which may lead us to sin.
I've been asked how much I read the Bible daily. I clearly neglect it on my off days. Being knowledgable about the Bible is good because it gives us God's perspective! As Proverbs will show us, the wisest of us is more foolish than God's own foolishness. Most obviously it just makes a point that our wisdom will never reach the knowledge of God. Knowledge of God begins with God, himself! I contend that God's foolishness refers to Christ taking up His cross and the Son of God being a slave to the God the Father's commands. These days, thanks to the mysteriousness of God's touch, we have the computer at our hands to search for scriptures! It really eases the task of having to memorize scripture, but at the very least still try to read the whole Bible. For me to not read the Bible, I fear that it is basing off of my own efforts. There is a clear distinction of how there are believers with the greatest amount of faith to those with the least amount of faith. Through the word, by the grace of God, whatever amount of faith we have in Christ is our entrance into the gates of heaven! A common misconception that many believers still question is how if we can be saved through faith, why can we still sin and be forgiven. It's unfortunate there are ones out there among us who won't hesitate to criticize their own brother's mishaps. Also, it's unfortunate there are those who take the true word of God lightly! This is where supplication comes in handy, it's a fancy Christian word for praying to God to bless them. Like myself and others, we have been baptized by the Holy Spirit through the very words of the Bible. Get this straight, it doesn't have to be my experiences with the Holy Spirit matching with the reader's experience. The reader may not even sense any movement of God's blessing in his life.
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Dehydration headache
I'm getting this headache because I think the M&M's I ate on this warm afternoon is causing my head to ache. Maybe I didn't wash my hands and something got into my system. I did have a sandwich. I think it's mainly from the gatorade, which I'm still tasting underneath my stomach. I wish I could not have a headache, whenever I read or do something. I think it's just asking for too much.
EYY
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Monday, May 15, 2006
Ahhhhhh!
I'm starting to realize the possibility of people reading my blogs. I never really cared in the beginning because I introduced a lot of funny things. I'm starting to become a more serious person again, which is supposed to balance out my life.
My mom still thinks I'm a kid and constantly badgers me with these annoying questions about "How's school?" "Where's your homework?" "Why can't you find a girlfriend?" I'm old but not really old compared to everyone in this whole-wide world.
My heart is starting to develop into a light-headed writer. I've eventually gained some insight in how to interpret people's meanings. It gets a little hard sometimes subjectively for me because I've never really honed it with my mental laser beams. Here's a random KCCC picture which I hope people will like.
EYY
Friday, May 12, 2006
Passing memories
I find it a lot easier to focus on one picture besides, posting them all up at once. The last time I did that, was a week ago. I became very sarcastic looking at all those photos. It's not very difficult for me to post all those pictures. I did it under an hour, I think I just didn't feel that sensation as I used to.
The photo is basically a person who looks like me and Chris Park. I'm going to have to admit, he is taller than me by an inch! No worries, I know I stunted my growth for reals. I even convinced my skeptical analytical brother Fred. I'll let you know by saying I have my dad's side genes who is about Fred's height. I have a size 10 foot and hands that are comparably the same with other taller friends. I ate a lot of junk and stayed up as late as I can, contrary to when parents say "Don't eat too much ice cream!" "Go to bed, you are a growing child!" So tradition has it, not taking too much carbs and getting enough rest will make you grow from childhood.
I'm not so worried about height anymore because I prayed to God to make me taller! I am confident because I feel taller spiritually already. That's all I really need, the inner confidence and the fellowshipping with God under consistency. Doing those tall-man exercises which I've researched on will give me fellowship with God. I will feel taller the rest of my life regardless of my ending physical result.
EYY
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Today's topic
During Vision Conference at KCCC, I took a photo of three brothers from Cal Poly. At the second to the last day from V.C. I went up on stage and shouted "There is nothing impossible with God!" I still believe in that today. I've had struggles in making my faith grow because of my inner pride. I believe I have made some intellectual strides to come to stronger faith. These days, all brothers are having a hard time with what seems to me, living a KCCC-like life. What I feel is lack of fellowship and encouragement.
I'm not such a great person at communicating because I'm not a very people's person type. I feel like grieving today because I have some inner feelings of dissatisfaction. I can't truly find where my dissatisfaction is yet. I think it is from feeling discouraged about not providing or receiving love. After all, I do have some problems. I have thought I was living the high life without any. Making these strives of trying to have a healthy routine will take a lot of prayer. I'm not so good with prayer, but I think the best way for me to develop would be to do more quiet times.
EYY
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Sunday, May 07, 2006
Today's plans
I'm really busy from just cleaning up my apartment. I took so long to organize all that mess. My lack of judgements probably come from lack of experience. One of the things I feel we need to do is to ask Christ, if we can do something. In whatever detail it may be with respect to our lives.
I am more confident these days by placing my trust in this verse, "We have this confidence in approaching God. If we pray for anything according to His will, he hears us. If he hears us (whatever we asked for), then we know that we have what we asked for." 1 John 5:14-15. Note the keywords, "According to God's will." God is not Santa Claus, as a verse somewhere says "If I have cherished sin in my heart, God does not hear us in prayer." I'll find this verse next time.
EYY
Saturday, May 06, 2006
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