Funny and bad incident

It occurs to me that everyone doesn't have their good days, including me. I have received word from a person who has actually read these stupid blogs about how I'm really cocky when it comes to talking about Jesus Christ. I think he's just made several remarks with incorrect justifications, implying that he's not really fit for the job of being my Bible study teacher! I've decided to call off the relationship, and I'm going to join a ministry to serve the Lord Christ. I feel it is going to be necessary to lend a hand with everything, especially with potentially irresponsible people. Something has really bothered me about this person who has taught me the Bible. He has turned fickle and implied moodiness with his writing. I think he's an off-and-on person when it comes to believing in God; he's also working on the ministry he wants to be at.

I'm frankly concerned about others who may be like him and so I need to join to ensure that God can have better servants. I have the freedom of choice with this matter because I've been given it from the day I have decided to accept Jesus into my heart.

The funny and bad incident I meant to talk about, away from my religious digressions, is that I recall writing a dumb letter about getting people to come to a pool in a desert location, which implies the university village. No one has replied to this e-mail, and for it, I have been unwillingfully tearing myself into pieces. I have a lot of stupid moments that I can't get off my mind, such as doing a stupid video and making stupid comments that has implied racial slurs to an art teacher. I have done a lot of stupid things on accident and some just for the fun of it, unfortunately.

It is difficult for me to keep things off my mind sometimes and to stay on course with other things. I have struggled with possibly the most human errors you can make while in a logical state. My life has suddenly numbed down quite a portion with my thoughts of getting married. Therefore, I have no need to want to indulge myself in lustful fantasies via media or video tapes.

I am just about getting ready to graduate in possibly one more quarter. People seem to be assuming that it is okay for a young boy like me to take my time. These people include my dad and neighbor. I feel a little attraction, but not really so love with my neighbor who is old enough to be my grandma! She does seem to wear makeup and has this surprising look or enlightenment when I come over to help her out. She gives me money when I give her some advice, and I ask her to stop. She just keeps giving it away, implying that I deserve it.

Leadership

Everyone makes mistakes in life, and some just think it is plain wierd to make one at certain instances. For example, if you do everything on your own with a club, then people are like what the heck is this guy thinking. I know that is how I've been. An offbeat person taking on a bunch of CS majors who think I'm a moron. It doesn't matter what has happened because I've gained a higher confidence level, not from my own vanity but from appreciating better things than myself. My sister is a person, in other words; she's not someone you can toss aside for your pleasures sometimes. She has feelings, too and can be of great help. It is moments like these that make me see value in people's lives. I'm not saying to be a religious person with no beliefs, when I propose that we all should read the Bible.

I finally get it. There are those who like to follow and very vulnerable to peer pressure. What this influence brings is going to widen a person's belief system. Some will not want to give in and feel it is too big of a burden to carry out. That's how I became in the high school fads; whereas, my sister Jean became that way with religion. It's a very bad thing to go after something spiritually, when you know that it is just a religion to you. I'm not trying to say that Christianity is a bad religion. To me, it is my faith, love, and hope. It means more to me than a religion and so this sort of passion keeps me going. Some don't have it to the expectation levels of Jesus, and frankly, we all don't. His main message to us is an invitation, just as Billy Grahm has said to the kingdom of God. We are also chosen and appointed only by the Lord. There is no need to feel a burden of religion, and it is wrong! A moral justification of the Bible does help to show its appeal, at least to me.

Students have claimed that they are not going to support the club anymore. It's alright, not everyone has stuck around with a do-it-yourself device from a garage. It's been about the joy and of course, fortunes. There has always been the ups and downs in a business. A year of misfortune is not really a big deal, if you take into consideration all of the developing ideas. I'm having a go at it the second time, and I'm really happy to think about it. A disappointment has happened because no one really frankly sees it as a necessity. It's alrite, we don't really have to pursue after them because we are looking for an ideal club ran by Jesus Christ, himself. There is no shame to my faith. The second to last sentence about Jesus running this club is a little unclear because I am implicitly stating that the non-supporters are like a foe to me. To run a club, it isn't about feeling people's glory or have someone gravel at your feet. In other words, it isn't about the president feeling vanity.

Many disagree, especially women. It isn't about thinking about all of your happiness and rewards and what God has to offer. It is a very noble act to care about others even with the slightest hint of serenity.

Things to do first

I've finally been inspired to write something that deals very heavily with the club matters, not stuff! The word stuff in my opinion is a very bad thing to say because it reminds me of a very bad word that I prefer not mentioning to the public. Recently, I've had the privileges of hanging out with good friends who I've not known for a very long time. They have come every week to chill at my parent's home, even late at night. It's been a good feeling because we've gone places, as a big group. A guy who I know of is pretty good at thinking up stuff to do, as a group. Oops, I have said stuff to someone else. He has created games and have made us go places to eat, which he likes doing to us. This is something I can learn off of for this club. I am noticing how he is doing ice-breaker stuff for people to get comfortable with each other. It then becomes a given that the ones who want to talk start talking to those who are important to him or her.

Because we have gotten so acquainted with each other now, it does not feel like these people are barging into my life. Plus, I have enjoyed their company with me. My sister, Jean, is starting to loosen more up with me by being less bratty. She has offered me to go on a date with some Korean exchange student, whose trying to master English and is an engineering major. I have decided to decline, just because Jean is a younger sibling than me; it should instead be the other way around in my perspective.

To summarize this story short, I want to introduce some games for people to do at the meetings that I've done with my outings. It's really about getting to know the girls more for me, and it still remains professional because there's no girl who'll be in charge of setting up dates with her friends. I think I have finally reached the point of no return to stupid things because I'm starting to pick up the book more often, now. I'm also caring for my family's business a lot. I've done a simple thing for my dad at his company, and he has paid me back with a good prime rib dinner and a hundred dollars. My life is going smoother and more responsibily now; even though I should stop skipping classes! We all have worries, every once in awhile because we fall apart naturally. We need to find a new step of good direction by praying to the Lord, not Buddha. There's only one God who lives in our hearts, and he's Jesus Christ. I believe absolutely that Jesus is the only person who will change the lives of anyone.

It really looks like, if I go over plans with myself about how something should go, at the least, the day before then everything will go well! I have hated losing precious time at the best meetings, by squandering it with meaningless squibbles of my speech. I have wanted life to spring up in this club, and it is happening in time and a matter that is dilligent. Having lost a lot of sleep over the last year, I have gained new skills by getting angry at myself. This isn't the best way to go about things, although it is acceptable in a scary way.

There are a lot of opportunities out there in this world, and it just has to be found. Science is a game of finding discoveries and enabling us all to continue taking advantage of the developments. Research is a meaningless expression that has been regarded as a force to be reckoned with by some institutions. Time and dedication to research becomes a routine to some of the best scientists in the world! The motivation is yet to be found from people who matter the most to us, and this sometimes can be for the worst, if we are not careful. Sometimes, it takes personal manipulation just to get started and after that, things get rolling. The wear and tear factor is heartbreaking beause there's a limit to how much we all can study at once. By studying in smaller increments that is set in longer time spans, it should allow anyone to at least master the course material. To go further into the material and do creative things with it, it will take even more brilliance and talent. Some just have the knack for it, whereas others just don't have the time for it or can't do it at the moment, for whatever reason. Even though you get a 100% on an exam, it doesn't necessarily mean you are smart. It just means you are getting positive feedback from how you study, and if you don't feel good while doing this then I suggest you stop destroying yourself for the wrong reasons.

Club Shout-out

It's great to know that two people who never really have showed up for the club meeting, last year, have asked me about the club. I'm dedicating this post for people who are interested but haven't been able to reach me. The club has been formed in the past by a group of people, formerly known as the Bits N' Chips. They have been a legacy to the CS Department because of their shrewd ways of forming a large clique. From reading about their few posts online, I have noticed that they did a lot of website designing, which has dealt with javascript, perl/CGI, and other stuff. The club has faded away since because all the diligent originals and moguls left the campus!

It seems as though we are currently passing the phase of a humble beginning. What I mean is, I have found a few guys who are willing to work on fun stuff we think up. No routine has been set from last year because it has always been about people showing up. From having this experience of a large negative one, it's always been about the content that's been judged by everyone as important or not. True, I have slacked off a lot by introducing an infinite feeling of stuff to do at the last weeks of the spring quarter. For a starter, it can be nice if I specify the introduction and requirements of everything we will be doing to keep on pace.

I am honored to have been endorsed by everybody whose been involved with my campaigns. There is a successor I have in mind of, and he's Top Genius. A background has fed his brain to dedicate to open sourcing, 24-7. It's been relatively cool, but not the best to have Evil Mac Genius as our new advisor. He really has missed out on stuff by being discouraged by me! Not to mention, Srinivas has felt the same way by advocating a professor to kick me out of a CS course. What has happened about it? Oh, nothing, I just got into a huge talk-fight fest with an infamous CS teacher. I have beaten him because he's never replied once to my interesting e-mails that appeal even to me, to this day. Anyway, the name calling has been a well-labeling factor; I have just called him a jerk, and he has taken it up the alley which is a very good sign for everyone. I am mentioning this; I hope he's going to be a more socially engaging professor and mentor to good students. It's time to let go of the past and hold back on the satisfactions I have found from arguing with Dr. HK Liu. He's most likely not going to.

Writing is powerful

A former bad-boy roomate has told me that e-mails stick with professors. I have not been able to notice this because when I write, I do it without the curse words. It is interesting enough that a reader can be offended when the text is written in such a way that emits derogatory meanings. It becomes a clash with his or pride on the line; some try to exact revenge and play the logical game of figuring out whose meant to do well in life and not. I did write an e-mail to a professor, who I will not name. He has been an ugly complicated figure to a lot of my friends, who has taken him with me. The women seem to not have any trouble with this guy though; it could very well be that a female professor has decided to defend this poor fellow who never writes back!

What I have done is very unheard of because I have done something that could very well be done briefly in television or on the movie. I have done the act of talk-fighting with this doctorate, who has decided to be a personal show-off of his small invested powers. This professor is someone I do not recommend taking because of his style of giving minimum effort to his students. He does enjoy throwing curve balls, instead of the traditional fast balls to teach his students. It's like he goes against the student's expectations and sometimes feels that he isn't a good person to hang around with. The man is a Chinese wierdo who won't get in your way if you don't. It's much the way that I am, too. If someone has made me mad without any previous history of experience, then I can be a bad person to hang with too.

There is a comparison with both of us, in how we act. The difference is how he has decided to make retreats more often to spend time with his boy. I am a winner of this stupid event, but I have the ugly mind that I have described to this fellow as well. I still can't apologize because of the bad experiences that he gave me, physically. Spiritually, I love the man and want to wish him the best of luck; no hard feelings. I forgive him of everything that he's done to me, but I can't apologize. He is supposed to be my mentor, at this point!

My slip up

I feel that I have greatly done a disobedient act for Jesus the Messiah, this time. This post is going to be offensive for some people because I am going to be outspoken about my immoral act. Here goes:

I have become in a sinful mood with the ladies today. I have gone online and have done some searching for lustful material that is inferior to pornography. My old habits have taken over me and have caused me to forget about all the regrets that I will accumulate. I have found things dealing with movies that contain lustful footage. It has made me waste time and now I don't know if I'm constipated! The reason that I reflect on this poor image of myself is so that I'll rely on a better source than myself to keep me at a repentant stage for the rest of my life.

I have condoned the fornications that are found with movies, which has weakened me. I still have yet to get married and attempt at raising a family. It is like all eyes are glued on me to make great expectations occur. I have no help in the matter in fixing my bad interests. All I can really do is stop slipping up, at the start. A little dose for me can immediately become a new compulsive behavior, after doing so well.

Time is precious, like money. It means that our decisions will cause scarcity with doing something wickedly pleasurable. Nothing is going to happen, if one just thinks about creating results. If changes are thought upon, then results will occur. I am never going to have the power to change people into the good godly figure that I see as fit. This means that I will constantly have to face dummies, who lust after the worst things and actually be getting temptations to sin, influentially.

A good club this year will mean that I am a good student ready to take on the bad sides of the world. If it stays bad, then it is pretty much a statement from God telling me that something is wrong! I need to become more persistent now and let my developing ethic take over my evil and wicked desires.

Valuable Club Lesson

I have had the privilege of traveling to Laughlin with my family and relatives that size up to thirty-four people. What I have done over there is gamble about fifteen bucks, which took me 3 hours to lose on the poker machines. I broke jackpot a couple times by hitting a four-of-a-kind and a straight flush once, but it is not enough when you keep betting only one nickel! We went to this jet ski area, and I let my sister drive the water vehicle all over Colorado River. I just kept on telling her to drive very fast, which she did on the bumpiest courses. I had a lot of fun hugging her, although she is still quite emotionally unstable about her opposite sex relationships. She's over 18 by the way and needs a nice man to steal her heart for the greatest thing possible, which is to make her realize that she is a kind person and loved very much by God.

We fight a lot, Jean and me; it's enough to make my parents go bonkers! They advise me to just scold Jean and stop being retarded. I don't want to do that because I can learn so much more by figuring out where Jean's coming from. Don't whack your siblings dummies, unless the young one is still a baby to you. Then, I'll take what I said back. Getting back to the true subject, I've been doing some natural thinking about this club.

The reasons for my failures is because of people's conflicts of interests. For example, Margarita and Mike find studying for tests to be more attractive than attending meetings every say, two weeks. This goes to show that we all have wishes and wants that differ from each other. I see it this way, and the other bad person doesn't want to listen to me. I don't have to mention any names because they didn't show up!

My dad is CEO at his almost small engineering facility; briefly, I have mentioned they build airplane parts and manufacture them for Boeing and Douglas. He tells me he became to first to wake up and to ignore all of his selfish thoughts on the day he was supposed to play golf. The moral of this story is that in order to lead a successful business, you have to be selfless by attending to other's concerns, no matter what! That's what I intend to do with the aftermath reflections of this post. Have a safe evening with your family. Bon appetit!

The Ultimate Folding Power

The reason why I have chosen to title it this way is because I need to let go of my addiction with poker. I am just too good at it, and it is making me lose mindful concentration on better things with life. There is a trade off here that everyone must make. You either avoid that period of life, or you just go right in and call it. Some people believe life is a game of chances, near misses and hits. The more hits you get the better productive your life gets. This is the how the world of poker makes you think.

I believe there is a contradiction to this game. First of all, probability is like a hoax. You think you have a great chance of winning and so you bet all in. What happens when you don't get that win? You pretty much lose all of your possessions. Folding in fact becomes a good thing to deal with in life. Others sometimes don't see how lucky they are getting or the reasons for their failures. When I play poker, it is like I'm among a seat of mockers because I scoff at the winners who have finally lost all of their betting prowess.

The ultimate trade-off with life is having the will to fold on something you know is sometimes a good feeling to have. Others are something one has to deal with, when he or she is competing for the ultimate prize of some game. The more people who play at this game, the less likelihood of a chance you have at winning. Without collaborations from friends, you will never get free tips to try out. Without the proper upbringing, you will never know when to perform in life.

Relying on chance becomes a game of chance and possible losing streaks. I personally hate losing at something a lot of people are trying to go after at the same time. Computer games have this effect, for example. It now becomes true to my heart that however amount of performance ones do at something is going to affect how well they do at it. It then becomes a choice of what that ultimate prize should be. It is all about how it fits to one's life.

I personally have had too many ambitions, all too soon. This cuts down on the elementary things that I have to find out. A list of all the good things is something we should write up to see where we are at. Secondly, a goal is something to consider. Lastly, changes must be made with our habits so that we can obtain this true substance of glory. I'm going to have to fold at the competitive world of entering the stage of poker. Don't be lazy, figure out what you want to know about and search for those proper answers on Google. If you can't do this yet, then develop on your reading skills so that you will have a better chance at becoming a resourceful person and successful someone.