I've found a site where you can order an e-book to become taller naturally. The testimonies claim people having grown at least some centimeters for trying it. It's likely that people can even keep growing to their thirties. I personally want to grow taller because I'm about 5 ft 2 1/2. It doesn't really matter to me because I don't mind being this short. I'm just doing it to glorify the Lord so that I can fellowship better with other brothers who are way taller than me. That's my main reason of wanting to grow taller and so I will apply the principles from this book of growing taller. The website is tobetaller.com, but I'm going to do it because it looks pretty safe to me and thirty dollars doesn't seem that big of a deal for a book. I think I will check its authenticity before I I go about ordering the book.
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Today, I don't feel like writing because I'm still sick with a red right eye and sore throat. I think the red eye is affected because of my allergies with dust and also very tired. I believe in heavily in not using medicine to relieve myself because I want to live a steady healthy life. This way I won't have to rely on a material to sustain my physicality. I'm finding that I am becoming more capable of an individual who can love and show affection. I do have emotions inside of me that cause me to want to cry for people who died in a war. At the same time, I'm also able to cry for being happy at the good things that are happening in this life. War just induces tears to me because I'm bringing myself closer to it this year. I've signed up and now am part of the active army as a signal intelligence analyst or linguist. I don't know what adventures lie in wait for me. In the next five years, I don't know how I'll turn out after finishing my service. I could be sent to Iraq but I don't see it as likely because I'm going in the service as a noncombatant so I won't be seeing enemy lines. The brave Korean units all 660 of them in Iraq are also noncombatants and none of them have died from enemy fire. I hear how one died after being kidnapped by Iraqi terrorists. I believe that the government might have a bigger calling for me because they are willing to invest a year of Advanced Individual Training for me to learn a crucial language. I am willing to defend my country and will die with honor, but it's highly likely this won't be the case for me. I'm looking at being schooled in the army in postgraduate school. My sister has made the assumption that soliders have to do their job and can't go to school. It's not so because the army places willing and capable soldiers at a school with duty to research for the government.
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I haven't written on this blog for a very long time now. I think I've finally found some time to include a little portion of the details that has happened in my life. This week a lot of significant changes are occurring in my life because I've made some life-altering decisions. I still have some time to go to reconfirm that my path is absolutely the best way to go. Sometimes, we all have to risks to get to where we all desire. Many will want to find a relaxing and comfortable route because discomfort and suffering is seen as a negative sign of someone's life. It in fact is just the opposite because suffering and discomfort could be used to the person's advantage in growing smarter and developing a good heart. Many of us are still basing our lives off personal feelings and thoughts that come with it. I'm pretty much an emotional dummy as of this point in my life. I like to see things clear cut and after things that I want to do. I still have faults that I want to get rid of. I have moments of blurting out uncontrollable words when I'm faced with a situation of studying and flashing back to memories that I don't want to remember. I remember thoughts that I used to have dealing with my evil desires of sensuality. I've had to battle with this sin for practically my whole life. I also say stuff to people and repeat them to myself because I don't want to make any mistake and like to fix them as I go. I'm not really into fame and fortune. The image thing isn't really for me. I've noticed that my intutition is starting to grow larger and has piqued itself to higher grounds. Surely, I know that I'm still a dummy by making mistakes. I've figured out three things will ensure a good school life. Focus, study, and hard work. Learning is just a state.
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It's really hard to appreciate humor these days. I guess not everyone is able to see it these days. I believe we all have our strengths and weaknesses that carries us throughout our days. It's sometimes difficult to picture a calling of the right higher power. I'm talking about the almighty God of the Old and New Testament. I'm basically laughing off the pressures that are associated with this writing. I've developed some type of humor that motivates me to continue progressing in this lifetime. It of course hurts to not to make progress for me. If I end up doing other things that aren't my priorities, I end up sad, lonely, disappointed, and often frustrated. It's like wanting to get high off of drugs but you use a different enemy which is your ownself. We can sometimes deceive ourselves as young human beings without any proper advice. Some think that kids grow up to automatically thinking adults. This isn't always the case because the ideas that we all have don't necessarily fit in the modeling stream of this world. For instance, I dream and become the sole center of interest in the dreams. My ideas become exposed to my conscious, and my brain waves carry out a simulation of how I'm expecting people to interact with me at different circumstances. I have surprised myself quite often with unexpected results from what I have originally aimed for.
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Boy, I'm not very emotionally stable at the moment and it's this feeling of emptiness that's associated with my body. It's really discouraging to try to talk to people because my style isn't that great. I have grown up as not a talker but more of a thinker of my conscience. I've made a lot of bad decisions in the past and knew I was making them. I also became trapped into this cycle of addiction. I know it's all about keeping a constant and steady pace. My body doesn't seem to have that discipline to do it. From childhood, I've never been able to take out my restlessness when it came to getting things done. With all of these things, I have lacked a lot of advice which I made my idol. I've always had this sort of spiritual sense of being told what to do to make my life happy. My parents and peers have made an assumption that there really isn't any problems with my life. My mom was like one of the proudest people in my life because of my steadiness. I became ensnared by my lusts for playing video games and actually passing them. My psyche became totally dependent upon how I was playing a video game. Today, I am mourning about my past and doing the best I can to make my end's meet. I'm totally used to segregation with the normal crowds. I never really did so well in the big ones. I grew up with a shock of being physically left out by people I played with. I was one of those people who was chosen last for everything, but I was at the top of my class at different periods of my life. I certainly did have this edge of wanting to get A's, no matter what it took. I started losing it because I became worn out from having to go to school over and over again, with each grade. I wanted to skip all those years and get right into the meat with a solid teacher guiding me. These blessings are truly not what I have had, but I don't really care after all. Even though I mourn, my existence doesn't really care about it at all. There are a few good influences I have had in my childhood and faith is one of the most useful tactics that you have to get to. I'm now at this point in my life where everything has to be in place. My weakness is that I can't do that perfectly as I would like it to be. Looks like through having gone a lot of sufferings, I'm relying on the Bible more than ever, and it's comforting though challenging sometimes. I do feel like a work in progress for it though.
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Today, I had a pretty bad day because I was kicked out of my brass ensemble class. I have been playing the trumpet and euphonium. The euphonium is like a tuba but way smaller. The instructor Gary told me that I'm making everyone wait on me and was making an accusation that I don't know the music. He also told me to not to come back, if I couldn't play the music. I can seriously play the music, but it's just me sometimes in that I can't keep up with the tempo. Oh well, I'm going to keep showing up to class. It pretty much is painful to be going through this negative event because I couldn't be so attentive to class lectures today. I'm just being an idiot by placing a lot of blame on myself with those feelings. Those feelings cause me to rethink and find some wrongs. When I'm feeling mad, I tend to think up things that could ethically go against the person I'm mad at. For the most part, I was pretty sad today and much stuff from math class didn't go in today to my head. I'm just being a dummy. The bright side is that I I believe that this music class is helping me learn about accountability and improvisation. I've been collaborating with the instructor freely a lot by giving him feedback about what's going on. I even gave him a phone call and left this cold message to him. I implied that I don't really care if he kicks me out of class, just that I'm going to keep trying. I told him that I don't like to reason with feelings. It's pretty true because I'm not very affected emotionally a lot of the times.
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Today is Casino Night as well as Gethsamane Prayer night. I might be attending the Gethsamane which starts after the Casino Night. For the Casino Night, I will be suiting up and taking four of my friends, which includes my sister. My sister and her "girl" friend will be wearing a dress, I suppose. They are both like a sister to me and will be my date tonight. I'm taking two girls to Casino Night. It's been quite a journey for me this week because my emotions were not very consistent. I guess since I'm human, it's only normal for me to feel that way but I am pretty well driven by living a life of principle. It's also a really good thing when the emotion of goodness kicks in while you are also living a good life with the proper attitude. Sometimes, a good life isn't enough to reach God, or the greatest thing of all. A good life is what some people are inevitably going to resort to because it may be in a form of calling but which they do not know so keenly. It's through the gift of God that everyone has an amazing or unique gift. Whether it be a good artist or to someone who remains consistently joyful to be alive to see anyone filled with energy. It's through our prayers to the holy one, Jesus Christ, that people will come to see his kindness and patience to us in being led to a heart of repentance. It isn't about religion, it's about what our heart's intentions are supposed to contain. It is in fact the secret to an eternal life of happiness filled with love, joy, peace, faithfulness, patience, kindness, and goodness.
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Hey man, everything seems to be going for me smoothly because I just blew the opportunity of talking to this one army guy throughout the whole school year. He doesn't really have any interest in me anymore because I'm adding a lot of details that may have gone all over his head. I'm planning to join the army and see if I can enlist as a linguist because I want to learn Korean and serve my country. I owe it to the government because they provided my education. Today, I have gone to a witness meeting for my club and I let God guide me in talking about Jesus Christ to a woman. That was really the first time I talked to a woman in sharing the gospel, and I was pretty nervous. God decided to change her heart by accepting Jesus as her Lord and savior. I'm pretty down with that because heaven has still yet to rejoice for others to come. I will keep this woman in my prayers. I want to make it my priority to excel in school to glorify God.
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Today, I'm starting to realize how some women are hopelessly driven to be in an engaging relationship with the man of their dreams. I've made this discovery by feeling that "duhness" of my body, but it kind of helps to have looked at a website where vulnerable women might hop into. Biblically speaking in Genesis, it mentions how Eve was going to be reliant on Adam for her needs. I believe that there are exceptions to this proverb because God has raised prophetesses throughout the whole scriptures. A prophetess is a female prophet. It's really crazy to see how the strongest people also have weaknesses somewhere. Man or woman befriending one may be a very rewarding task. Reflecting on today's Bible study, it occurs to me that Christians do a lot of religious things sometimes which could be burdensome upon them. The truth of the matter arrives at the heart of each individual's soul. The intentions of the heart are what truly matters. Will a person who teaches good be a hypocrite? In other words, do they have the right to condemn others for their misdeameanors as they also transgress? The answer is obviously no, and God will be the deliverer of justice! I finally see that without any details my words of some revolving truth will suck. God is this awesome creator who puts peace back into our hearts, if we are willing to repent of our wicked past and acknowledge that the perfect life of Jesus Christ who rose from the dead has come from reigning in heaven to save us! The Book of Life has already been written after eternity has passed, so will you confirm your spot by accepting Christ today?
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Man, I look pretty old today from facing the mirror. I have a lot of scars on my face, which makes me wonder why women don't talk to me really. It's okay for now, but I think only time will show how I've taken better care of myself and I'll leave up to God to decide what my appearance should be for his glory. It's so important to know the aspects of human life because even the most minute detail of our hearts can be an indicator of who we are. Conversating helps a lot and really finds some encouraging trips for the participants to travel on. It's through this moment of time where we all can start to realize where our weaknesses are and how we can truly fix them. For me, I feel that I spend so much time recapping about what just happened that it takes a couple precious minutes off my daily tasks. I think that I don't have enough motivation to get off of it because I'm not fully consistent enough to recall everything that I must do. It's also difficult because I don't have a car to travel to places more conveniently so I'm sort of stuck without that luxury. Helping the heart sounds a lot of fun, but I lack so much in doing it. I believe that I don't have all the basic foundations fully laid out yet for me to really start growing by putting in a lot of time with something. I guess I don't have that common sense as most do, but I won't stop trying to reach a very productive state because this is my calling from God.
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Why my life used to be poor

This is my second blog post, and I still haven't been quite tuned to being very well off yet physically and mentally. I'm like being contradictory to many things because I'm just putting myself into a too relaxed position in my life. I have this calling to become better and more dilligent. Thinking about the time of the ice age where people were grunting and making noises to communicate, I think there were those who were called by heart to standardize their language and then teach it to others. It's like our people status has always existed from the start and not evolved from some ape-look alike species. I know that apes have similar DNA with us but I still can't believe ourselves being inferior to those creatures! I also have had a life that pretty much sucks from the day I was born. For instance, I necessarily didn't have the best parents because my mom was accustomed to only raising her voice and telling me emotional ideas that don't make sense like being the most happy when you are a child. She's also told me that young people don't need a lot of sleep because since their bodies are strong, they will wake up refreshed after a good night's sleep. I don't know if that's true because even old people can train their bodies to adapt to certain conditions even though their peak physique has passed for ages. My parents have fought a lot over small matters which turned out to be very huge arguments. They have both started screaming and yelling at each other giving lectures about what's right and why the other is wrong. There's been this separation gap between the two as well because my dad has gone into the patio to pop in a videotape and avoided talking to my mother in Korean. That really sucks because I couldn't learn so much. My dad has also told me to be very dilligent and study hard even though I didn't know how to. I then have seen my dad pop in another videotape and look really lazy on the couch by laying there and looking like a couch potato. I have told him that he was a couch potato, and he has raised his voice denying that he is a couch potato. He's been under a lot of stupidity by yelling his and I being his youngster, I have wanted to avoid any confrontations with him. He has told me to not to smoke and drink a lot, where else he has. I think he has said something like how he can control more than others can or with a deeper meaning involved in it. I think my dad smokes because of his pride to do it. My dad has also implied that he wasn't the best child by being the youngest and making a lot of girlfriends with the ugliest face. My dad has had to win my mom's heart by repetitiously calling her home before they were married. My mom has hated my dad and even screamed at him trying to get away from him. My dad has told me that my mom has worn shoes that made her look five inches taller in the past. My mom doesn't deny them, which makes me feel a little sad sometimes. Hearing about my pagan family and atheistic heritage makes me feel a bit sad, and it sucks. It has sucked so much that I've said it so much that my dad would get mad at me claiming that I'm like "what the heck" to my ancestors. So I've been forced to be around so many mishaps, personal failures, and disappointments that I'm starting to realize that I've been an idiot all this time to try to serve other gods in my life, such as television and the god-awful porn. I've pretty much been very encouraged to repent by none other than the Holy Spirit. I realize that I have so many strengths that I don't end up using them because I don't know how to. My simple model that I've thought up is to get the most important tasks done. By placing God first in my life, I'm filled with a lot of opportunity to grow bigger in my stay here at earth. There is a God out there and not many including worldly Christians see it all the time. An utmost fruit of joy, love, peace, faithfulness, patience, goodness, and kindness is associated with Christianity. To acknowledge the Son of God's existence is enough to not to need only selfish blessings from Jesus Christ. It's pretty much the smartest route to take in this life because doing everything onto the Lord with all your heart in whatever you do is a blessing. Not every devout Chrisitian is a pastor because women are also called to lead the household of her offspring.
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I'm currently logged on wirelessly at home and remotely connected to someone elses internet. It's pretty unreliable because my laptop doesn't always detect it. I'm currently watching stuff on TV which is about the quarterback. I also ran a half marathon today of 13.1 miles with my family. I have a younger sister whose about 19 and goes to UCI. She's pretty feisty so don't approach her if you are going to annoy someone. Running today was fun and I think I lost four pounds today from doing it. I took about two hours and my family finished twenty minutes later, excluding my dad who took three hours. I'm very impressed about how there were bigger people who was running better than me. I mean people who you would never expect to run a marathon very well. They finished earlier than two hours, and that's impressive. I saw a man who pushed a baby stroller while running! The marathon today had a count of 10 K runners. I believe only one of them commented about how I was short behind me while I was running which means that I'm not that that short. My main objective was to glorify the Lord by finishing the race but I think I need to train a lot harder for next year.
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Sometimes dreaming a lot can be bad for you by fostering the development of your pride. For me, I'm sometimes able to control my own events that go on in my dream. It's like I'm the sole center of knowing what's going on everywhere. I just got up right now and received a phone call from my mom. I'm speaking naturally in Korean in these days but still limited in it but I want to learn more about Korean. I think going to the army to do a civillian job would be a great way for me to give back to the government who has supplied me with free education. The Bible says not to take ill-gotten gain for granted because it creates a bad proverb for the person who is taking advantage of it. For the last couple years, I felt I was taking advantage of the government and became emotionless to the idea of going to school and just had this period of not getting much done at school and merely existing. I need to go my laundary done right now so that I can go home with less things. I am taking this labtop with me though and what I'm going to do is to try to minimize even less my load by setting up a computer at home sooner or later. Right now, I have this calling to get some programming done and that is what I will focus on.
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It's this time of the year again where everything doesn't always go according to plan. I'm not very disappointed at really anything but it really seems like that my mind can fixate on people visually. Our hearts and souls are corrupted, and we must get them repaired by our Lord, Jesus. I'm facing an emotional breakdown but not that big because it's the end of the week and I have to keep going. I can't stop going after doing my homework and must keep it by getting done early. It is then that by being on top, I will be able to master school a lot better. There is this unique for me to do well in school because I want to be very well educated enough to be able to have a great sense of knowing myself and going to a place of learning. I don't have the calling to really become a preacher, nor do I have a calling to go really in depth with the Lord of God. It's like I have banned myself from having deliberately sinned under deceit. I am going under a period of mourning because I have not reached a dilligent status yet. Eventually, I should be able to control my emotions a lot better.
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Today, I have gone online for no apparent reason at all because I have this urge to finish up my writing. Okay, now it's starting to kick in so I was at this career fair orientation and this army dude who is a sergeant told me about how I could be an intelligence analyst. It's basically a linguist. That sounds pretty cool, and it does deal a lot with computers because we have use all this telecommunication equipment. I think I could gain a lot of experience through this environment as well as get a master's in business and software engineering. I personally believe that software should be free and that it's the service that one should pay for, such as getting assisted on how a software works. This refers to a service oriented economy and should be alrite for software people. It's pretty nice to know that even though I am a short being. It really doesn't matter how short one is, and I'm just being an idiot to think otherwise that it's not okay to be short.
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Spiritual Recap

I have realized that God's power over mankind is a serious issue because God will one day judge all of us after we physically depart from this world. It's hard to see that the physical world is a place where you exit to go into another dimension. Death is like exiting this physical world. The true essence of death comes from our past sins which have caused us to deserve death. We are all deserving of death because we have failed to be a good person at one point. We all have good morality in us and can decide to turn against it out of being deceived or having the choice of going after pleasures. This morality in us has been created by God, and many Chrisitians know the law of God really well but choose not to abide by it. God is going judge us for our actions, and we are accountable for all of our actions because God looks at the intents of our hearts. Not knowing the gospel or knowing the gospel is not a problem to God because His creations are clearly visible. We are not creators of this land, and when we claim that a thing is rightfully ours in its entirety it is not because those elements are of God. Everyone has the choice to go under sin or not. I hope that many more will come to the realization that they must repent to be right before Jesus Christ, our savior who justifies our righteousness before God.
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