Land of Earltopolis: 2009

Monday, November 23, 2009

Personal goals:

How I'm Making Money: 1) Mystery Shopping (very good)

goal: 2) Get Full time Job related to I.T.

Wise investments: Blackhat, Google ads, optionetics, nouveau rouche, forex

Questionables: magickids, ecoquest, radio biz, writer, poker, medical transcriptionist

personal: grow taller, become better singer, make muscles, lots of certifications, hobby programmer

who cares if my programs are cheesy...at least they do something and it's for me to laugh about and get better on

Better commit to mystery shopping. It looks to be very profitable for me right now.

Okay God. I hope that I can seriously read the Bible enough times and get the message this time. I'm just going to get my frustration out of my system without trying to put myself in direct control. Oh that was very mean and sneaky of them but I can still work around it. There is definitely going to be some magic now.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Schedule

I'm finally getting pretty smart about this now.

I realize that when I'm down in terms of sexual energy it's not really that bad and that I still have the desire.

This finally makes me remind that when I'm down and out I still have the desire to want to continue.

I believe that I am smart enough to obtain a lot of knowledge now. It should not really be that bad for me now.

Going to the radio station to reinstate myself does not seem like a very bad idea for me. I think I'm going to be really busy throughout the week and I really need to get myself acquainted now.

Today is Thursday. It's awesome that I don't really have to worry about not being a witness anymore. I guess by being Asian and the way I act, some people pretty much assume that I'm religious and go to church. Pretty cool, I guess for me and I really don't have much to worry about for a guy of my stature.

I really need to get going. I need to make a phone call to the ABC SoCal and see what's up with my status.

I'm going to rule out poker now. It's a gamble where I could see my money not come back. Maybe for fun purposes where I know I'm going to lose but think it would be cool to win and not much was given up then I'll play in that situation. I'm not going to make it my career or study so hard like Phil Hellmuth does.

So poker is practically going to be like playing a game for me with a little bit of money, but something that I won't get too caught up in for economic purposes.

To get my cash flow going, I need to basically keep applying everyday for jobs and looking for good opportunities.

I'm going to really utilize a personal diary that is confidential from the eyes of everyone and then be honest here.

I have the smarts to outsmart everyone. I really know this. Even though it's sad for them, I should really do it for the sake of making a better country to live in especially by influencing others around me to be great like you Jesus. I would also need to work on myself as well. I really feel it now and it's going to be good.

Okay this is what I'm going to have to do in the time being. Raise enough money while staying away from poker for now until I make enough. I'm going to have to continue to be truthful for some reason. I'm going to have to be a very hard and confident worker.

I'm going to get myself reinstated at a radio station. I'm going to spend some time with medical transcribing as well. I'm also going to volunteer at a hospital. I'm also going to try to list out a lot of different things to try.

Work out/make myself taller, guitar playing and learning, piano playing, singing and music classes. I'd like to be also a volunteer doctor for some reason and really knowledgeable in the area and pretty good at contributing for the field.

I think I have everything great laid out already and should not have to worry about changing myself so drastically now.

It's going to be super hard but I want to try to be a writer as well on the side. I'm going to do some available mystery shops.

Basically my plan is to do things that I can hang onto without going back to old companies that I failed.

I'm basically going to have to establish a believable repertoire now. I'm seriously going to lay out my schedule really well right now.

Okay, time to brainstorm.

Radio reinstatement ...

Let's Keep Moving

Sometimes a lot of difficulty is found in having lack of desire. I guess I'm not without it anymore. Sometimes, it's this emotion that feels like it's running dry and because of it, it causes me to stick to the behavior by not wanting to give up. It's a little hard to explain and might actually transcribe into how I communicate with others.

I'm practically going to be getting really busy now. I don't really have all the time in the world as I thought I had back then. I guess friends come as a priority and I really would like to live out my desires now. My main desire right now for my personal needs is to just practically succeed financially. I think it might get depressing if I succeed and then find nothing to do while quitting work. Maybe, even under financial independence working at a company would still be okay. Being a charitable person sounds like a really cool thing.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Private Update

I guess I'm currently writing an e-mail instead of looking at my blog so that it looks more discrete and possibly more professional in what I am doing God. God I guess I felt like I was in loads of trouble but I'm feeling a lot better these days. I don't see myself reacting really badly in the future with situations that occur like the ones that happened with Jarred and Chris now. I feel that I have accomplished so much with myself emotionally and now can have better days in this area of staying in worship of you.

I played omaha and am continuing to extend my win streak at the tables. It looks like I've really figured it out and that I'm taking advantage of players who really have not polished their game yet. Maybe if I stick to it I may be able to increase my earnings a little better and that I should sort of be more humble in the approach. I really realize that hold'em feels like gambling for me because of its all-in nature and the hitting cards on the flop. However, with omaha hi/lo I see that there is some life in it and that I can play it very normally. This type of game feels like to me that your money is up for grabs just that it has to get to the right cards. There's a possiblity of anxiety incurring and not being very good. It looks like sin and temptation is ubiquitous right now in this world.

Right now I really need to figure it out and call up the folks over at ABC SoCal and see if there is a job ready for me to grab. If there's like a location going down the list that could be out of reach for everyone. I should mention that I would not mind driving further than my usual range to get to work so that I could persevere and make money sooner. I want to really get to the radio station and really register with them too. I also would like to spend a little time doing some medical transcribing. Now that my emotions of hanging on to things are a little better and that I can humbly accept my weaknesses, I might as well get myself really acquainted now. I feel like I could be a very committed guy to an attractive and nice woman. I would not mind raising a lot of kids...

I really should factor in working out and getting more useful in the things that are occurring. My mind is really planted and locked in now. It's in a very good setting. I should really go in for more usefulness. Temporarily I should really get more engaged with the goodness of life. I'm so short but my feet look like really normal too which is interesting. I guess it won't hurt my body proportion to get taller and buffer.

Let's see this whole internet thing is going to take a lot of patience and effort on my end God. I really need to start getting more disciplined and way more patient with myself. I need to also call up the bank tomorrow and get that transaction with LAN/WAN Professional through.

I really need to start behaving in a manner that would get me some money fast so that I could keep up with the credit card minimal payments. I know that I have this job set aside and that it's going to be highly good for me. I will do a really good job and I know that I will not suffer at it. I'm getting my feet wet into a position that will be crazy good. I will do everything in my power to keep up and make ends meet. I'm finding a lot of gratitude in the person you made me God. I'm going to have to save my money and execute really well from here on out.

Looks like it's going to be a situation for me to really start doing the best I can.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Okay God this is me

Okay God. My mind is really screwed up at times because I exaggerate so much. I can use curse words still and I want to make it into never using them at all.

Okay, this is the issue that I'm dealing with. I need to really make any form of money to pay off my spending spree. I guess I can't really help myself right now in not getting some things. I think I fully need to focus on myself and not try to blame others for all the things that's happening to me. I guess talking to them to laugh about the situation is not a bad thing. It never was a bad thing and I don't mind the bad reactions that I'm getting now. It's thanks to you God that my personality is sort of capable of doing this.

I'm going to focus on my desires God. I really need to do this to stay healthy. Okay those impure thoughts are things I should never focus on.

One of my main desires right now is to pay off my debts and have enough to do those cool stuff that money can buy. I would also like to help out as best I can with a good amount of money. I don't need to get mad if the money gets abused. I would like to focus on making myself taller and having a more healthier stronger and active body and mind. I would like to be converted daily in your grace.

For the job situation, I want to pick a position that I really want to do and be able to sustain for loads of long periods. I pick a field related to technology and computers. I believe I'm in pretty good hands so far. I'm going to make my main job not a part job that I do in the morning which is driving a big bus. It would be great to learn but I'll leave it because it's considerably a career move for me. It's time to move and improve and get more using my brain.

Okay, these are my options that I've searched for. Currently, I feel that MagicKids has a great selection and is pretty cheap but is not good for people working in it. I'm going to drop MagicKids and Ecoquest. I don't blame the church for my decision of getting sucked into it. It was just not my time for me to do it.

I do really like writing, so doing something related to writing would be great. I would like to get a Master's Degree too which would be so nice and an attractive resume for getting plenty of interviews out there.

I'm going to have to utilize my time really well throughout these weeks. I'm going to have to be a little hasty in my efforts of earning money and withstand some hardships in getting by. This is just focusing on me. This is an area where I feel that I can have pride in.

God, I know poker is a game that I'm mastering. I'm finding that it really displeases my mom because of its bizarre world. I want to be humble about my gaming and never risk it too big now. I'm going to stick to Omaha because I'm a winning player in it. I'm not going to put too much time into it because it would be bad for me to rely only on poker like some of the pros are doing. I don't find it to be a satisfying world as Angel thinks. I guess I'm different in that area. I'm just playing to gain and may the best hand win even if it's a bad beat, or they just played really well. For now, I'm just going to stick to one table and focus with the game strategy that I've developed.

So I may end up earning very little in Poker and losing very little which is absolutely fine for me. That is going to be an okay trend for me. I'm going to focus on this Mystery Shopping thing because it really is going to be an absolutely good backup to help minimally pay the credit card bills and other stuff. I know it's hard and going to be at risk of me not getting paid. It's something that I'm going to have to endure because I'm in debt and trying to progress.

Because the radio industry is also very flexible even though I'm reading that some people are getting messed up with their finances and some people are really intriguingly weird to associate with in it, I'm going to reinstate myself into it and really help myself earn a partial side job in it. I'm also going to gamble a little at first in marketing on the internet and try to really complete that website using Omni Biz Solutions. Even though it really does not look that good and appealing, I really want to try to make the most out of the help that they claim to offer.

Overall, it's going to be highly difficult on my own downtime which is a lot to let go of watching T.V. and letting it influence me. I really think that I should and rely on good newspapers that I will search for.

I really would like to build some video games too. I want to continue learning so that I could pay for those exams and increase in skills. My mind is practically going to utilize all this free time that I have been blessed with now. I have a large reason to do it because it's part of my desire. I will be spending time with some good friends as well when I'm not really occupied with myself. There's nothing wrong with that. I'm ready to open up and be fully honest as required.

It's going to be a huge mixture of researching and letting go of personal things. I'm not really going to stay home and be sure to spend a good part of the day away from home just to get out more and figure it out. To really get involved in doing it. I'm not going to be disappointed with failure and losing some money when I was expecting something big to occur. To be careful about this, I'm going to spend very little in my experimenting of finding cash to help pay some bills. Doing something is better than nothing! My confidence of what the good things that I'm seeking to do should outweigh my mother's advice. It will never be above you God.

Thursday, October 08, 2009

I've been practically writing everyday for the past couple years. I'm going to keep this journal for myself now. I think starting off things became really rough and crazy because I did not know how others were forcing themselves upon me and how they wanted me to change to suit their wishes better. I'm okay and I totally forgive their attitudes with me. It's going to really difficult getting what I want, but I want to try it in a subtle manner that involves no yelling or insulting someone's intelligence. I realize that it's not my fault and that I could not be in control of the situation. I'm sort of smiling now because it's a wonderful struggle for me. I really still love people after all this drama that was forced upon me. I'm not mad anymore. I'm not feeling that adrenal rush anymore.

I keep on watching porn for some reason. I hate really doing this and then masterbating. God if there is some way of helping me to overcome this stupid incident, I would be so glad. Lord Jesus please forgive me for what I've done for being so blind to this situation. My mind is not really advocating what they are doing and I'm using porn for a different purpose of peeking deep into a female's body. Perhaps admiring the spouse more would be better and that you don't have this in mind for me yet to look at. With the sexual arousal in its bad days where the blood level is down, I worry that I won't be able to produce offspring, but each time I fail to see that I'm perfectly fine. For now on Lord, I'm going to stop looking at porn and will not forcefully peek into a female's body by spending time searching for it. The nudity that occurs in movies is just something that I will excuse because I'm going for being distracted with other arts in the movie. I know that I can handle the nudity, the sexual content, and when it really turns me on, I just to have to live with the fact that you are making me wait for the right person. Lord Jesus I know how I want to conduct my heart. I'm sorry for being selfish here Lord. I really desire this to be a part of my life. I pray Lord that you would be able to lead me here into a larger direction for a good blessing. Amen. I'm so tired and wasted my day today. I need to rest and try again this time with more decisiveness without carrying it out for so long. I'm just going to need to do it.

Maybe a switch should happen, I do things for myself and try to leave others out of it until you can verify that what I'm doing is perfectly fine.

Earl

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Hard hidden lesson

This is something that I have picked up now. It's okay if people think you are having a hard time, and they want to help you by giving you advice. I say try to accommodate them by following their advice as close as possible. Maybe your image will be affected in a bad manner to some people. I still do not think it hurts to really listen to people. I think it just means dying to yourself. It deals with the length of time that they ask of you. It's really hard to be patient if you want to things your way. I guess in life, sometimes things are not supposed to go your way. I now see that I need to live my life submitting to people who really want to help and trusting them and be ready to forgive them all at the same time. As long as you are submitting to them in all respect, I think there's something called negotiation. I don't think I will have the need to mess up in this area anymore with people in my life. Just speak up boy and be ready to commit to others' needs and wishes. I'm ready to do this without getting any professional help.

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They try to deceptively walk in a distance of light,
But personality seems to make them hide.
They claim to have desires of marriage,
But the attractive traits for men are not really there.

Talking to them, others will say is a waste of time.
Not for me, I want information that's more than a dime.
Tackling strategies and writing about beautiful struggles,
My personality may actually be a little too normal.

The goodness in life that is found and toughened,
It all starts with a heart that wants to be broken.
Conceiving and encouraging for the right person,
Will be beneficial and helpful for Annie and Betty.