How have you been

I am largely now accustomed to writing whatever is on my mind. This can sometimes be a very positive or negative thing for everyone because you don't want me to be in a bad mood. I can't really change myself into an always easy going guy anymore, as I used to. Well, I will have to believe that in loose terms because I get easily impressed. What I mean is, seeing a person show up to a meeting or event makes me happy. By phasing out a whole lot, I have caused people to lose interest in me.

I need to make up for lost time now. I can just say do this and this and try my very best but I suck at it. I need an overall good staff of leadership, if you can feel the vibe join me. I have been starving spiritually a whole lot lately from not going to church or reading the Bible enough. Patience is a wonderful thing to have for a long period of time. I failed at this because I wanted fast results. Sometimes our prayers are put on hold by God because it is inappropriate to Him. Selfish prayers are sometimes what people can wish for and try at. It's very sad that nothing can be this ultimate genie in the world. I'm sure if that were the case, the world would be nuked and resurrected for eternity. I figured out dating is not really a game, but there's one catch intimacy is a natural gift from God. Some religious folk try to remain celibate for the rest of their lives and deprive themselves of not multiplying into a few more people in this world. Fornication is an evil thing though to Christians, including lying, stealing, murdering, and cheating on relationships. Getting married for intimacy is encouraged by God. Being guys, we are the initiator and pursuer of the right woman to make our wife. Share the wealth, now because God will give us at least a pretty good calling for pursuing someone. She should be close to perfectly right. No matter what, people fail at being a perfect somebody, but it shouldn't stop us from repenting of our bad ways. God's awesome love for mankind and women caused Christ to get nailed on the cross to forgive our sins. That's what our faith is mainly about as Christians.

Hey there

I have figured out how difficult it is for a person to show up to a club where they figure nothing is being done. He or she shows this difficulty by not showing up. I had a lack of experience from the start because I never saw through a whole club. I think I have been the worst candidate for the presidential spot. Life doesn't always go my way because I make a lot of school mistakes. I took twenty units for five quarters straight, and it has been very difficult on my abilities to cope with my life. The stress level is always at its high, when I am working on delivering several demanding deadlines. I have been used to working on things at the last minute. It doesn't really show a lot of promising progress, after all.
I still figure it is up to my prayers in getting a wonderful club cultivated for a good fall quarter. I want to give up my position when I know everything has settled into a peaceful stage. It isn't up to me to blame everyone else for my problems. I have been trying to do this all along, but it instead has caused me even more grief. I hate to say this, but I love people in general. I am a little shy at girls sometimes because I do not want to offend them by acting aggressively. I believe I can be a hundred percent if I remain a confident person. By staying away from people standards and going after God's standards, I am feeling a lot better these days. Of course, we won't ever be perfect in this world but it doesn't mean we shouldn't repent and get closer to being set free with the truth of all things- life. Giving, loving, caring, and being gentle is Biblically a wonderful thing!

Club Projects

Projects have never got us anymore because noone did it. I know how hard it is for everyone to make time for one. By creating a tougher constraint on everyone, it will make this club subdued into a much smaller club. I remember giving a lot of proposals and because people were saying they were interested but not showing up, nothing really happened. It is very natural for smart people to distrust a club. All I really want to do is just do something with everyone outside of school. I am too tired of hearing about busy people telling me why they won't be able to make it. The sillier things get, the easier it becomes for people to remember. Let's be a club that doesn't lobotomize and is clear. Making the bad members, a pawn and the good ones a bishop or knight should be good enough. I want to call myself a bishop or knight too. Things should not be too silly. Thats how I am going about my life as president.

CSS is the best CS Club yet

Not many know yet that we are the best CS Club to have ever formed in the history of all schools. This is so because theoretically we open this club to anyone to come join us for down-to-earth and manly activities. Academic studies don't matter to us, leave that job to an Honor's Club. The reason why I have sucked badly is because I have never been consistent enough at doing anything. One day, I feel like being a legend and other days, I still feel like being a legend. Trying many different and uncomfortable things has caused me to develop into a less shy person. I have to thank the good parts of my lifestyle to Jesus Christ, who has answered my biggest prayers. We are going to have face it, homework drags, but we need to practice our skills on at least something.

Proposals unmade

A large reason for my failures is from not taking an active role on it. By asking busy people to help me, it really did not accomplish much. We are all very interested, I assume, because these people showed up whenever they wanted and could. It's been a very tough life, as a naive person. I do not have a lot of books and background covered to be an effective business man. I claim a lot of things about myself, when I have a lot of confidence, but this confidence in me does not last very long. I have this writer's block about studying. My intentions are to do the things I say, but I usually end up doing my routine habits. It is time for me to develop selflessly. My goal in life is to help a person in the best way I see fit. I am under assumption of lending mindful help by teaching anyone how to do a course subject, but first I have to study hard to be able to do this venerable position. The more confidence I find in myself, the better things become. This state of mind is not all about pride and being proud, but intended for remaining productive and unworn out. I think it is God's way of keeping us positively charged up. It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man - Psalm 118:7-9.

My evil acts and remaking

The reason I write about this topic is because it has made me unproductive in doing a club. It has brought me great shame and a willingness to repentance. I know I still have a long ways to go as a youngster. At the age of 12 or 13, I looked at pornographic material with past-time friends to explore the reality of sex. What brought me to greater sadness with myself was the amount of time I lost in developing into a better person. I soon discovered the feelings of lust, stubborness, and laziness. I try not to think too much about my past, anymore. After weakly accepting Christ at ten, I became confused for another decade. I could not read or write well enough anymore to suit academic studies. I had fits of rage with myself and would end up crying over feeling like nothing. This is pretty much the ugly past I have hid from everyone. After all these years, I have figured out television is basically not going to cut it. I am against those who uphold sexual impurity. Let's see where God beckons to try after with this club, this year. I'm looking at fun at CES in Las Vegas (if you can ignore bad things), trying out programming competitions again, vying for going to new conventions, and doing some professional group outings to normally fun places, like baseball games, local fairs, and arrangements for a banquet. Personally, speakers are not going to really cut it for me because we are our own speakers.

Summer Quarter

The year is closing in, now. Just another 10 weeks and then fall. Next, the year is over. I really miss Kamal, who is the co-founder of CSS. Unfortunately, I have had moments of wanting to change the name to Computer Science Club because it seemed to be a better name than CSS. I have been really overwhelmed by the lack of CS majors showing up to the past meetings. It looks like they just want to do other things, besides go to a club.

The features are my proposals and not many know about them. I never really managed to plan all of them. By considerable blessings, I have been the cook at a BBQ. Nick, a friend of mine, tells me it was very famous. I want to still do more. A former bad CSS member tells me I used to be unprofessional. It is very true the world is now overlooking computer software because of all the imperfect mistakes that have occured in the software engineering world. Some say, computer science disciplines have died from the internet stock crash. Others claim outsourcing. These events have striked fear in some of the most brilliant minds. Therefore, the people who defiantly stand against this bad tide are persecuted and become blessed with a wonderful talent.

God is weeding out the chaff of all people by encouraging believers to endorse their own persecution. We, computer scientists, are mocked and trampled on by this uncaring civilization. Those who work harder through this mess will make their way to success. We must continue to love our enemies, even though it will not seem right. The best way to defeat a bully is to show him love. Let us not drive our hearts into vengenace, but what is morally right.

Life Trials

What is pretty cool about this site is that I can also upload images. I have not been able to see these things lately. This is a very wonderful site to use for blogging because you can also edit the html code. I need to start working on the club website now.

My mind has been focused on rather interesting things that revolve around my life-making choices. Probably one of the weakest vulnerabilities I have is lusting after something I know won't be good for me. The temptation will always be there for me to turn away from God, every day of my life.

The biggest agenda in my life currently is to see that I get helped for improving my bad qualities. I have been developing a lot of opinions lately by feeling and thinking perceptually by visualizing myself in the shoes of celebrities. I must be sort of wierd for revealing this part of my life. There are some intriguing things that capture attention with television and celebrities. Did you hear about the engagement of Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes? I read Katie Holmes grew up with a poster of Tom Crusie and wanting to marry him. It seems to be a normal case for a woman to be infatuated with a handsome and charismatic man to accept all of his beliefs. A story called Angel [The Darling], a short story written by past-time author Anton Chekhov (1860-1904), underlies examples of that theme. I am going to have to underscore Tom Cruise here about scientology because it does not understand the essence of a jealous and perfect God.

Controversy is starting to become a very unhappy subject for many, especially those who are tired of bickering among each side. Tolerance of good and bad things is a norm now. It is very obvious that our human nature dwells on the knowledge of good and potential evil. Every man and woman has fallen short in trying to be perfect. I am going to have to denounce the evils in this world, and so writing a sentence is going to make me feel better.

I get to write whatever I want by blogging. It's sort of a fun thing for me. A friend of mine is slightly confused with how I never became a writer. In the world of computers, Linus Torvald created Linux. He would not have contributed a great deal without his best efforts of trying to communicate with the world. It looks like a lot of fun and dedication went into projects with Linux and so I am happy to have swept off my feet by being introduced to a Linux distribution called Suse. In this community, opinionated beliefs of what is better than what has destroyed a lot more than created. It has historically been a disaster for those Scottish men in tribes, who carouse nightly, never making a decision in how to fight a war; they were overthrown by the Roman Empire.

I think the best way for me is to do things to the best of my ability and be comfortable at it. I know how much I long for people's support. Having at least a few mighty men of valor has been encouraging enough. In this world of horrible deceptions, which run off of limited decisions and money, I can only mourn for my losses and continue hoping for the best. Pray for good things to happen for yourselves and bless others when you receive a wonderful fruit of God's making.

Missed Deadline

I have had to find some time to write for myself. Today I moved out of Bldg. 17-B because it was the deadline of my apartment's agreement. I had a lot of trouble yesturday as well. I did not know I had a lot of books and stuff to deal with all along. I had crammed all of those things in my small apartment room. What I really hated today was having to clean out the refrigerator which took some decent amount of time. I'm very upset I was unable to go see my roommate's graduation ceremony today. I was pretty mad at myself, in general.

I think life is just keep going to go on, no matter how one feels. I have cursing a lot around no one to myself lately. I don't like doing this. I am going to end it as one of my goals. I need to start facing myself. It's like the worst enemy is yourself. What goes on in your head and body is strictly up to you. I pray for all of you who will guide me to a better year of CSS.

Timing Values

Life is all about timing. The choices we make especially if we get to a high venerable position with our friends affect a lot of people. Placing a club vote can mean life and death with a policy. Responsibilities come by becoming a club officer, and it is very important to give these types of people the chance to let go of their positions and develop in the path they want to choose.

I have made many shortcomings with this club from last year. I wanted to see people come and when I did see a number of like five people show up, I did not take advantage of that time to ask for their individual experiences or expertise. I was too caught up with the future. I was unable to focus my attention on the present enough to be able to progress into it. I had a lot of thoughts accumulated, and they were probably very simple and off-centered.

There comes a moment in time where everything one places an ambition should also be seen in practical matters. The frequency of this ambitious activity will largely effect the timing of anyone's life. The summer is filled with thinkers, writers, and doers. The hardships of a tough major such as Comp Sci cause many disruptances for anyone who tries to cope with it. Noone really talks about the specific usage of Comp Sci anymore. It becomes hard to become noticable figures in the world. Other concentrations and desires cause the person to shift their focus onto other activities. The basic things in life deal with faith, love, and hope. Faith in a sense with the belief of how the world is working daily. Love in terms of respect with self and others. Hope in engagement of living daily and waking up to see you are your own individual, like seeing your hidden self without a mirror.

Honesty is not easy to come by because one falter of detail can mean the end of an organization. An organization who gets dishonest people to deal with money is not going to last very long. In generality, life is tough sometimes for people. The personal feelings become a way of life for trying to cope with it. Abnormally, happiness is envied by people. What makes life very difficult is exhaustion of doing anything, the stress level becomes a lot greater when the body does not have a lot of time to recuperate. Many have different ambitions and so when this time of exhaustion hits them, it causes them to temporarily change their way of living by talking.

Sleeping at least eight hours a night is a necessity for most of us. Without those hours, we will fall asleep in class or show up very late. We won't be able to learn and push forward with our education without sleep. Reading textbooks and on other interesting topics also become a very big issue because that period is our time of development- a moment to reflect on life. What I discovered from going on askjeeves.com with the search 'how do i read faster?' was that the brain is able to read automatically any word by looking at the first and last letter of each word. Perahps, it is because I am a good speller and pronouncer which causes me to fare very well. Others will have different ways of reading text by skimming it or reading word for word on every text.

Writing becomes a very powerful tool indeed. The confidence of a writer and his image is very important to the reader. By getting to the point in a confident way, he will attract attention. It is much like talking but in a different sense. Talking takes a lot of work and people enjoy playing jokes on each other by not exactly doing what they said they would be doing. I think people get jealous at me. It's like they squint their eyes at me and show a resentful face to me. They really abhor people who have undergone a lot of adversity and come out stronger. They see how life doesn't work for them, but it does for someone else. I actually have someone I envy and that is the vice president because of the background he has pursued. By reading up on a lot of computing for years, he is able to recall answers to a lot of basic computing questions. I wish I did that myself when I was in high school. In conclusion, all I can really say is if qualified people decide not to pursue a good cause then it is pretty much their own faulty decision.

Happy hours

A new beginning has occured for CSS because we now have Dr. Rich as our new advisor. It was very cool to see how well he responded to my request of asking him to sign the advisor application. I also had a very good response for Dr. Srinivas who I thought was a numbskull at first. He actually really cares a lot about the CS students. I have heard some very positive feedback about others who give their devotion to this club.

It's the sense of wanting to do something that caused these great people like Margarita and Mike to come to this club in the beginning. I did not know what it was all along that was supposed to draw us together. It's not all about the academics and getting people to come to the activities. It's really all about doing something together and having this great sense of achievement.