I'm starting to come back alive, and realizing my potential. In the dead scenery of life that I've abandoned for half-a-decade, I feel as though I've lost all the typical desires we are seeking. I felt really tense inside all those years for an unresolved difficulty. It's just from being lost in my flesh and resorting to lesser evil sins. I never really did have full comfort with myself; it's as if I really felt I needed to be on top of my priorities. I really hit a few states where I became a slave to my lifestyle. I was forcing myself to stay up all night to study, right after playing long hours of fun video games. I can't seem to vision myself anymore, as the type who can do what I used to.

I see a totally new perspective in my life; just because I saw myself as short and fat in high school doesn't mean much in the big picture of this world. I came to really appreciate my above normal body parts, compared with my taller friends. Last year, I toned down a whole lot and reached a very skinny weight. If I had been the weight I am now, then I would not have passed an athletic fitness test. I totally wish that I had fulfilled one thing in all those passing years. I really needed to get enough hours of sleep, which I really never managed to do so consistently. My flesh was so constantly excited for downloading porn and playing video games. I was only putting a whole lot of effort to read the Bible, exercise, study, and hang out with friends. I never had this emotional bonds to these things; I was so afraid from having lost a few best friends and prized possessions.