My evil acts and remaking

The reason I write about this topic is because it has made me unproductive in doing a club. It has brought me great shame and a willingness to repentance. I know I still have a long ways to go as a youngster. At the age of 12 or 13, I looked at pornographic material with past-time friends to explore the reality of sex. What brought me to greater sadness with myself was the amount of time I lost in developing into a better person. I soon discovered the feelings of lust, stubborness, and laziness. I try not to think too much about my past, anymore. After weakly accepting Christ at ten, I became confused for another decade. I could not read or write well enough anymore to suit academic studies. I had fits of rage with myself and would end up crying over feeling like nothing. This is pretty much the ugly past I have hid from everyone. After all these years, I have figured out television is basically not going to cut it. I am against those who uphold sexual impurity. Let's see where God beckons to try after with this club, this year. I'm looking at fun at CES in Las Vegas (if you can ignore bad things), trying out programming competitions again, vying for going to new conventions, and doing some professional group outings to normally fun places, like baseball games, local fairs, and arrangements for a banquet. Personally, speakers are not going to really cut it for me because we are our own speakers.