Club Revival

Let's all assume something in that this club will find its way out of a hole. The purpose of doing something is to basically stay active and benefit almost everyone who is interested in being part of a club. We can't cover everything in a year, so the best way is to make progressions. There comes a period in time where someone starts figuring that the best path in life is not selfish and hormonal desires. It becomes very useful to be acquainted with creating something out of nothing. Becoming wealthy, which means living a full life with all of the desires of one obtained, happens by doing the right things. Is it true that cause creates an effect? Most likely it can just be the case.

If I am to look at myself and get a clear visual of what I want in life, then I am to believe that this visual which is advancing others is possible with a lot of faith and effort. Our minds are equipped to create a substance out of nothing because the idea is coming from nothing. We should have faith and effort in obtaining something that we desire. There is no need for one to covet after another's possessions. We do not have to hurry and be competitive. We simply need to do the right things to succeed in life.

To desire wealth is not a bad thing because it is a natural thing to make advancements in life. Wealth is not all about having the most money because the richest man can be miserable. It is a state that causes satisfaction in self and others. This wealth can be used to promote others, and this is how it should be. One should always associate with what he desires.

If one associates with failure, then he will inevitably fail. To constantly keep in mind with faith on something that one desires will cause this person to receive something he wants eventually. We are all capable of achieving wealth and no competition can keep us from gaining it. There is no need to fight others and to maintain selfishness for the greater good of self. Some excel well in competition because it is their skill. Being competitive means being hasteful. We should be completing things as fast as possible but not doing it with haste.

We should all desire wealth and promote others. The will begins by associating with wealth and getting a clear visual of this desire in your mind. We have mind, body, and soul. We must have desire in some sense for each aspect in order to maintain a higher quality of life. It is not the way for one to keep in regard with animal desires. This is not life. From what I know, the true life is to know that a deity doesn't want us to live in poverty. We all have prayers and want to assist a person we love. Without wealth, we cannot spread love. The true essence of this wealth is found by creativity of a substance from nothing.

Funny and bad incident

It occurs to me that everyone doesn't have their good days, including me. I have received word from a person who has actually read these stupid blogs about how I'm really cocky when it comes to talking about Jesus Christ. I think he's just made several remarks with incorrect justifications, implying that he's not really fit for the job of being my Bible study teacher! I've decided to call off the relationship, and I'm going to join a ministry to serve the Lord Christ. I feel it is going to be necessary to lend a hand with everything, especially with potentially irresponsible people. Something has really bothered me about this person who has taught me the Bible. He has turned fickle and implied moodiness with his writing. I think he's an off-and-on person when it comes to believing in God; he's also working on the ministry he wants to be at.

I'm frankly concerned about others who may be like him and so I need to join to ensure that God can have better servants. I have the freedom of choice with this matter because I've been given it from the day I have decided to accept Jesus into my heart.

The funny and bad incident I meant to talk about, away from my religious digressions, is that I recall writing a dumb letter about getting people to come to a pool in a desert location, which implies the university village. No one has replied to this e-mail, and for it, I have been unwillingfully tearing myself into pieces. I have a lot of stupid moments that I can't get off my mind, such as doing a stupid video and making stupid comments that has implied racial slurs to an art teacher. I have done a lot of stupid things on accident and some just for the fun of it, unfortunately.

It is difficult for me to keep things off my mind sometimes and to stay on course with other things. I have struggled with possibly the most human errors you can make while in a logical state. My life has suddenly numbed down quite a portion with my thoughts of getting married. Therefore, I have no need to want to indulge myself in lustful fantasies via media or video tapes.

I am just about getting ready to graduate in possibly one more quarter. People seem to be assuming that it is okay for a young boy like me to take my time. These people include my dad and neighbor. I feel a little attraction, but not really so love with my neighbor who is old enough to be my grandma! She does seem to wear makeup and has this surprising look or enlightenment when I come over to help her out. She gives me money when I give her some advice, and I ask her to stop. She just keeps giving it away, implying that I deserve it.

Leadership

Everyone makes mistakes in life, and some just think it is plain wierd to make one at certain instances. For example, if you do everything on your own with a club, then people are like what the heck is this guy thinking. I know that is how I've been. An offbeat person taking on a bunch of CS majors who think I'm a moron. It doesn't matter what has happened because I've gained a higher confidence level, not from my own vanity but from appreciating better things than myself. My sister is a person, in other words; she's not someone you can toss aside for your pleasures sometimes. She has feelings, too and can be of great help. It is moments like these that make me see value in people's lives. I'm not saying to be a religious person with no beliefs, when I propose that we all should read the Bible.

I finally get it. There are those who like to follow and very vulnerable to peer pressure. What this influence brings is going to widen a person's belief system. Some will not want to give in and feel it is too big of a burden to carry out. That's how I became in the high school fads; whereas, my sister Jean became that way with religion. It's a very bad thing to go after something spiritually, when you know that it is just a religion to you. I'm not trying to say that Christianity is a bad religion. To me, it is my faith, love, and hope. It means more to me than a religion and so this sort of passion keeps me going. Some don't have it to the expectation levels of Jesus, and frankly, we all don't. His main message to us is an invitation, just as Billy Grahm has said to the kingdom of God. We are also chosen and appointed only by the Lord. There is no need to feel a burden of religion, and it is wrong! A moral justification of the Bible does help to show its appeal, at least to me.

Students have claimed that they are not going to support the club anymore. It's alright, not everyone has stuck around with a do-it-yourself device from a garage. It's been about the joy and of course, fortunes. There has always been the ups and downs in a business. A year of misfortune is not really a big deal, if you take into consideration all of the developing ideas. I'm having a go at it the second time, and I'm really happy to think about it. A disappointment has happened because no one really frankly sees it as a necessity. It's alrite, we don't really have to pursue after them because we are looking for an ideal club ran by Jesus Christ, himself. There is no shame to my faith. The second to last sentence about Jesus running this club is a little unclear because I am implicitly stating that the non-supporters are like a foe to me. To run a club, it isn't about feeling people's glory or have someone gravel at your feet. In other words, it isn't about the president feeling vanity.

Many disagree, especially women. It isn't about thinking about all of your happiness and rewards and what God has to offer. It is a very noble act to care about others even with the slightest hint of serenity.

Things to do first

I've finally been inspired to write something that deals very heavily with the club matters, not stuff! The word stuff in my opinion is a very bad thing to say because it reminds me of a very bad word that I prefer not mentioning to the public. Recently, I've had the privileges of hanging out with good friends who I've not known for a very long time. They have come every week to chill at my parent's home, even late at night. It's been a good feeling because we've gone places, as a big group. A guy who I know of is pretty good at thinking up stuff to do, as a group. Oops, I have said stuff to someone else. He has created games and have made us go places to eat, which he likes doing to us. This is something I can learn off of for this club. I am noticing how he is doing ice-breaker stuff for people to get comfortable with each other. It then becomes a given that the ones who want to talk start talking to those who are important to him or her.

Because we have gotten so acquainted with each other now, it does not feel like these people are barging into my life. Plus, I have enjoyed their company with me. My sister, Jean, is starting to loosen more up with me by being less bratty. She has offered me to go on a date with some Korean exchange student, whose trying to master English and is an engineering major. I have decided to decline, just because Jean is a younger sibling than me; it should instead be the other way around in my perspective.

To summarize this story short, I want to introduce some games for people to do at the meetings that I've done with my outings. It's really about getting to know the girls more for me, and it still remains professional because there's no girl who'll be in charge of setting up dates with her friends. I think I have finally reached the point of no return to stupid things because I'm starting to pick up the book more often, now. I'm also caring for my family's business a lot. I've done a simple thing for my dad at his company, and he has paid me back with a good prime rib dinner and a hundred dollars. My life is going smoother and more responsibily now; even though I should stop skipping classes! We all have worries, every once in awhile because we fall apart naturally. We need to find a new step of good direction by praying to the Lord, not Buddha. There's only one God who lives in our hearts, and he's Jesus Christ. I believe absolutely that Jesus is the only person who will change the lives of anyone.

It really looks like, if I go over plans with myself about how something should go, at the least, the day before then everything will go well! I have hated losing precious time at the best meetings, by squandering it with meaningless squibbles of my speech. I have wanted life to spring up in this club, and it is happening in time and a matter that is dilligent. Having lost a lot of sleep over the last year, I have gained new skills by getting angry at myself. This isn't the best way to go about things, although it is acceptable in a scary way.

There are a lot of opportunities out there in this world, and it just has to be found. Science is a game of finding discoveries and enabling us all to continue taking advantage of the developments. Research is a meaningless expression that has been regarded as a force to be reckoned with by some institutions. Time and dedication to research becomes a routine to some of the best scientists in the world! The motivation is yet to be found from people who matter the most to us, and this sometimes can be for the worst, if we are not careful. Sometimes, it takes personal manipulation just to get started and after that, things get rolling. The wear and tear factor is heartbreaking beause there's a limit to how much we all can study at once. By studying in smaller increments that is set in longer time spans, it should allow anyone to at least master the course material. To go further into the material and do creative things with it, it will take even more brilliance and talent. Some just have the knack for it, whereas others just don't have the time for it or can't do it at the moment, for whatever reason. Even though you get a 100% on an exam, it doesn't necessarily mean you are smart. It just means you are getting positive feedback from how you study, and if you don't feel good while doing this then I suggest you stop destroying yourself for the wrong reasons.

Club Shout-out

It's great to know that two people who never really have showed up for the club meeting, last year, have asked me about the club. I'm dedicating this post for people who are interested but haven't been able to reach me. The club has been formed in the past by a group of people, formerly known as the Bits N' Chips. They have been a legacy to the CS Department because of their shrewd ways of forming a large clique. From reading about their few posts online, I have noticed that they did a lot of website designing, which has dealt with javascript, perl/CGI, and other stuff. The club has faded away since because all the diligent originals and moguls left the campus!

It seems as though we are currently passing the phase of a humble beginning. What I mean is, I have found a few guys who are willing to work on fun stuff we think up. No routine has been set from last year because it has always been about people showing up. From having this experience of a large negative one, it's always been about the content that's been judged by everyone as important or not. True, I have slacked off a lot by introducing an infinite feeling of stuff to do at the last weeks of the spring quarter. For a starter, it can be nice if I specify the introduction and requirements of everything we will be doing to keep on pace.

I am honored to have been endorsed by everybody whose been involved with my campaigns. There is a successor I have in mind of, and he's Top Genius. A background has fed his brain to dedicate to open sourcing, 24-7. It's been relatively cool, but not the best to have Evil Mac Genius as our new advisor. He really has missed out on stuff by being discouraged by me! Not to mention, Srinivas has felt the same way by advocating a professor to kick me out of a CS course. What has happened about it? Oh, nothing, I just got into a huge talk-fight fest with an infamous CS teacher. I have beaten him because he's never replied once to my interesting e-mails that appeal even to me, to this day. Anyway, the name calling has been a well-labeling factor; I have just called him a jerk, and he has taken it up the alley which is a very good sign for everyone. I am mentioning this; I hope he's going to be a more socially engaging professor and mentor to good students. It's time to let go of the past and hold back on the satisfactions I have found from arguing with Dr. HK Liu. He's most likely not going to.

Writing is powerful

A former bad-boy roomate has told me that e-mails stick with professors. I have not been able to notice this because when I write, I do it without the curse words. It is interesting enough that a reader can be offended when the text is written in such a way that emits derogatory meanings. It becomes a clash with his or pride on the line; some try to exact revenge and play the logical game of figuring out whose meant to do well in life and not. I did write an e-mail to a professor, who I will not name. He has been an ugly complicated figure to a lot of my friends, who has taken him with me. The women seem to not have any trouble with this guy though; it could very well be that a female professor has decided to defend this poor fellow who never writes back!

What I have done is very unheard of because I have done something that could very well be done briefly in television or on the movie. I have done the act of talk-fighting with this doctorate, who has decided to be a personal show-off of his small invested powers. This professor is someone I do not recommend taking because of his style of giving minimum effort to his students. He does enjoy throwing curve balls, instead of the traditional fast balls to teach his students. It's like he goes against the student's expectations and sometimes feels that he isn't a good person to hang around with. The man is a Chinese wierdo who won't get in your way if you don't. It's much the way that I am, too. If someone has made me mad without any previous history of experience, then I can be a bad person to hang with too.

There is a comparison with both of us, in how we act. The difference is how he has decided to make retreats more often to spend time with his boy. I am a winner of this stupid event, but I have the ugly mind that I have described to this fellow as well. I still can't apologize because of the bad experiences that he gave me, physically. Spiritually, I love the man and want to wish him the best of luck; no hard feelings. I forgive him of everything that he's done to me, but I can't apologize. He is supposed to be my mentor, at this point!

My slip up

I feel that I have greatly done a disobedient act for Jesus the Messiah, this time. This post is going to be offensive for some people because I am going to be outspoken about my immoral act. Here goes:

I have become in a sinful mood with the ladies today. I have gone online and have done some searching for lustful material that is inferior to pornography. My old habits have taken over me and have caused me to forget about all the regrets that I will accumulate. I have found things dealing with movies that contain lustful footage. It has made me waste time and now I don't know if I'm constipated! The reason that I reflect on this poor image of myself is so that I'll rely on a better source than myself to keep me at a repentant stage for the rest of my life.

I have condoned the fornications that are found with movies, which has weakened me. I still have yet to get married and attempt at raising a family. It is like all eyes are glued on me to make great expectations occur. I have no help in the matter in fixing my bad interests. All I can really do is stop slipping up, at the start. A little dose for me can immediately become a new compulsive behavior, after doing so well.

Time is precious, like money. It means that our decisions will cause scarcity with doing something wickedly pleasurable. Nothing is going to happen, if one just thinks about creating results. If changes are thought upon, then results will occur. I am never going to have the power to change people into the good godly figure that I see as fit. This means that I will constantly have to face dummies, who lust after the worst things and actually be getting temptations to sin, influentially.

A good club this year will mean that I am a good student ready to take on the bad sides of the world. If it stays bad, then it is pretty much a statement from God telling me that something is wrong! I need to become more persistent now and let my developing ethic take over my evil and wicked desires.

Valuable Club Lesson

I have had the privilege of traveling to Laughlin with my family and relatives that size up to thirty-four people. What I have done over there is gamble about fifteen bucks, which took me 3 hours to lose on the poker machines. I broke jackpot a couple times by hitting a four-of-a-kind and a straight flush once, but it is not enough when you keep betting only one nickel! We went to this jet ski area, and I let my sister drive the water vehicle all over Colorado River. I just kept on telling her to drive very fast, which she did on the bumpiest courses. I had a lot of fun hugging her, although she is still quite emotionally unstable about her opposite sex relationships. She's over 18 by the way and needs a nice man to steal her heart for the greatest thing possible, which is to make her realize that she is a kind person and loved very much by God.

We fight a lot, Jean and me; it's enough to make my parents go bonkers! They advise me to just scold Jean and stop being retarded. I don't want to do that because I can learn so much more by figuring out where Jean's coming from. Don't whack your siblings dummies, unless the young one is still a baby to you. Then, I'll take what I said back. Getting back to the true subject, I've been doing some natural thinking about this club.

The reasons for my failures is because of people's conflicts of interests. For example, Margarita and Mike find studying for tests to be more attractive than attending meetings every say, two weeks. This goes to show that we all have wishes and wants that differ from each other. I see it this way, and the other bad person doesn't want to listen to me. I don't have to mention any names because they didn't show up!

My dad is CEO at his almost small engineering facility; briefly, I have mentioned they build airplane parts and manufacture them for Boeing and Douglas. He tells me he became to first to wake up and to ignore all of his selfish thoughts on the day he was supposed to play golf. The moral of this story is that in order to lead a successful business, you have to be selfless by attending to other's concerns, no matter what! That's what I intend to do with the aftermath reflections of this post. Have a safe evening with your family. Bon appetit!

The Ultimate Folding Power

The reason why I have chosen to title it this way is because I need to let go of my addiction with poker. I am just too good at it, and it is making me lose mindful concentration on better things with life. There is a trade off here that everyone must make. You either avoid that period of life, or you just go right in and call it. Some people believe life is a game of chances, near misses and hits. The more hits you get the better productive your life gets. This is the how the world of poker makes you think.

I believe there is a contradiction to this game. First of all, probability is like a hoax. You think you have a great chance of winning and so you bet all in. What happens when you don't get that win? You pretty much lose all of your possessions. Folding in fact becomes a good thing to deal with in life. Others sometimes don't see how lucky they are getting or the reasons for their failures. When I play poker, it is like I'm among a seat of mockers because I scoff at the winners who have finally lost all of their betting prowess.

The ultimate trade-off with life is having the will to fold on something you know is sometimes a good feeling to have. Others are something one has to deal with, when he or she is competing for the ultimate prize of some game. The more people who play at this game, the less likelihood of a chance you have at winning. Without collaborations from friends, you will never get free tips to try out. Without the proper upbringing, you will never know when to perform in life.

Relying on chance becomes a game of chance and possible losing streaks. I personally hate losing at something a lot of people are trying to go after at the same time. Computer games have this effect, for example. It now becomes true to my heart that however amount of performance ones do at something is going to affect how well they do at it. It then becomes a choice of what that ultimate prize should be. It is all about how it fits to one's life.

I personally have had too many ambitions, all too soon. This cuts down on the elementary things that I have to find out. A list of all the good things is something we should write up to see where we are at. Secondly, a goal is something to consider. Lastly, changes must be made with our habits so that we can obtain this true substance of glory. I'm going to have to fold at the competitive world of entering the stage of poker. Don't be lazy, figure out what you want to know about and search for those proper answers on Google. If you can't do this yet, then develop on your reading skills so that you will have a better chance at becoming a resourceful person and successful someone.

Brainstorm ideas

Many thoughts cause me to feel that we should have our meetings somewhere else besides room 4. What I really like about 345 is that it has a window for people to look out at, when people are feeling pretty dazed out about their lives. It also feels good to look at the blue sky sometimes. There are about 50 seats in this room as well, which is more than ample and can attract people into thinking that we are a huge club. Finally, Bits and Chips has a club long time ago, where they have had meetings somewhere else besides room 4. The Lord has blessed me with a good club to lead, even though it has been ugly at the start. Jesus has died on the cross to save his believers from dying in a miserable world and ending up in eternal damnation. The Bible describes hell as a lake of fire. This is supposed to be encouraging in that the believers now have a perfect mediator to connect with God. For God so loved the world, He gave his only son Jesus to die for our sins.

The best characters in the Bible are like Moses, King David, and several good figures. These people have served God really well, and God is unchanging and stable. God is perfect, whereas people age and change and rot because of their sins. The Holy Spirit is there to reach all of us willing to get to have a closer relationship with the Lord.

It's time to pray before each meeting and to grant requests from members. It is important to give unconvicted hearts a chance to reach a fellowship that used to be secular.

Some ideas that I want to work on is creating a chatroom from nearly scratch and adding voice functions on it because it would be cool to learn about it. It is also going to be useful in helping people. We can have online sessions and sometimes gather for playing cards for like an hour. It doesn't have to be perfectly the way I see it. It is all about what God has it for us to do in allowance.

Social Drunkard

The reason why I made the title a highlight is because a friend of mine was on the booze. He talked to me and told me arrogantly about how he could get anyone to join the CSS club. CSS stands for computer science society, and he said CSS society. I thought it was pretty wierd to think, Computer Science Society Society when you are drunk. We ended up playing horse at the basketball court. He made some tough shots, but I ended up slaughtering him because I did not want to lose a shot to a drunk guy. I had previously warmed up earlier in the day buy making five free throws in a row. It took me nearly an hour to make all of those shots.

This guy was taking some CS classes by the time that I was writing this. He claimed that every CS senior should be an executive officer in this club. It sounded silly because I know these people don't really want to do it because they were pretty lame people. These people were the graduating seniors of 2005 and not too many were cool about being part of a club they thought was dead. Not even a single hint of the struggles made a dime for them. I felt I deserved to banter them like that.

Getting back to these seniors, I thought about my friend Tim, who enjoys smoking and drinking occasionally. I met an officer of the school, and he told me he had a few licks corresponding to whatever amount of alcohol. I thought it was okay, but for Tim he acted very whoozy, and I meant it to sound funny. He ended up missing some easy shots and made it look so bizarre without any grace. He challenged me, and I decided to play along because I didn't really want to see him get upset. I said I would grant his requests because I agreed with some of the matters he had said.

I felt you can't really replace all the guys who had come to you in the first place because they were throned above all the others as the best. I thought to myself that he won't remember much of this incident because he drunk a little too much. I hoped to myself that he drank some water to ease the head cramps when he gets them. I believed at the time that he was a happy drunk. A football got smashed into his head, and he still felt happy at the person who threw it. It was very mean of course because they threw it twice.

I knew about a girl watching us play some basketball, and I didn't know if Tim and her had any relationship. I was glad to swiss a lot of the shots when I played Tim. I was sort of under the pressure of making some shots, so that the match would end quick. I believed at the time of the end of this writing that I would wake up with a few cramps on my knees and thighs for using them so much during basketball.

Wierd Thought

I know everyone has their own talents, and preferably knows what to do with their lives. Take for instance, Top Genius, my friend and the Vice President of this club who I want to take over this club after I'm gone. He enjoys browsing the internet for software and updates related to computers in general. When one uses Linux, it requires a lot of dedication to figuring out what computer concepts are. There's another fellow by the name of Evil Mac Genius, who is the club advisor and a really good CS teacher. He prefers keeping it simple and enjoying the cool designs Appleware comes up with. If you factor me in, I'm really a life that seems to go beserk sometimes because things go off and on around here. After being totally clueless to how the people function for a very long time, I am phasing back in, and it has been long for me to accept Christ into my life again, again, and again.

I feel slightly saddened for messing up all the time. I have never really been good at first time trials. The value I have learned is patience, off of my life's mistakes. It's like playing basketball and just shooting over and over until your shots go in, finally! I never really had a talent for reading and studying, but I have kept on going at it without giving up. Sometimes, the feeling became so dramatic I could not continue any longer. There came a period in all my twenty unit friends, where we all felt empty in pursuing after an academic mission. I do not know to what degree, but for me, I became absolutely sickened for awhile in having to stay awake all the time, falling asleep in classes, and not getting the grades I felt I deserved. It is a period of mischievousness when one develops a sarcastic attitude. It sure can be funny to observants, but to me I felt anger at a lot of people.

It does not matter what I thought these people did because everyone has their pet peeves. By learning about the truth, which is so difficult if you can't talk to the person directly, I became more confident about fishing for more members in this club. It is obvious no one is perfect. I thought to myself, I used to be a person who could do everything on his own. In fact, I have but not to a degree that pleases people. I know that without the truth of all things, people will feel that others are vicious to them. For example, people don't show up to a meeting and a conceived thought goes around in how everyone is making fun of a club. This is not a healthy image to feel.

One of the most difficult things that an independent leader can't do is ask for answers. It is so hard for them to open themselves up to controversial matters because they already have the sight set on a conceived simple model. Not many can rise to the occasion for breaking the ice. Being an ice breaker can also have its rewards because you find new things, but sometimes it is for the worst. A friend of mine used to always travel to the full usage of his brain to get advantages for himself. It would be a habit and very difficult to pass up. I in fact have felt the pain all the time of people making any excuse for not showing up to the meetings I have tried to host on my own. It truly isn't easy being the chairman of a club that doesn't have lackluster.

There's an answer to an inside question for why I keep trying to progress with the development of this club. There are new things to try out and new principles to learn about making a successful business. It becomes a passion to figure out how much one should not care about the opposition. Instead of trying to just force people to come, it's a good time to figure out what qualified people need in their lives. I have not been able to figure out why people might think of me as a jerk, or why I have been sinking below the average. I have unusally been cautious about approaching women, but maybe staying away from a few might be in fact a bad thing, both ways! A good school is wonderful to attend to. You have diversity, challenging instructors, smart and beautiful women, great developing friendships, and many trials to figure out what you absolutely stand for in life. What's your take in life especially besides an occasional pizza with beer? What about things to do with your friends?

Car Accident Posts

I have been lately unhealthy with my socializing ability because I won't break out of my shell at clubs. Just joking. I've been unusually tempted at becoming vulnerable of being unhappy and envious to people who share a good life already. What I'm aiming at is, the parked car I hit is owned by a young married couple. They have children and assume a nice home because their kids play sports. I don't know what account I had of when I whacked their fender by moving in forward! I did this at the parking lot. I felt devastated and thought I did a really horrible thing because it's like hitting someone's prized possession, a baby of some sort, a suburban. Those are somehow cars I've grown to understand as something positive to a man's love of cars.

Okay, I've been very sensitive to this issue. I can't seem to make up my mind in how to go about this. Furthermore, this is really funny is that they haven't pursued after my money in about a year now. I have prayed about this incident once, and I don't know if that had a good effect. I can't simply come barging into their hospitality because I would be tempted to lust after something I don't have and that's a married wife. I have to stay out of this lookout. The husband seems to be a really nice man, but the wife is a very independent-like woman who is very expressive of herself. I don't want to feel extremely bad after coming out of this house. I prefer a more professional setting now because I've grown up into a singled man. I don't like the idea of the man's wife being the moderator to this whole incident.

I like to think of myself with my new image as confident and pursuant of the chosen woman for me to marry. I am starting to feel a lot of passion of wanting to feel good by having an intimate relationship with the aftermath of a healthy marriage. I don't think I will single in a lot of beautiful girls for now. I have yet to absolve my nasty past of looking at porn and start being able to move into a more positive direction for myself. The regrets are wholy unsubtle and so I want to rely on God as much as Paul the Apostle did. Make that, more than the Apostle because my faith corresponds with this burning passion. I am getting at not living a life of regrets from doing evil acts, but instead sowing in good acts to reap better rewards in life.

Personal Update

I would love to become a better student because it is what God is intending me to become. I tried to play poker again, and this time the signal didn't keep up enough to let me play on the internet. I think this was a sign of God's work because the network is so healthy. I was so stressed out because this shows with a sarcastic attitude, I reluctantly developed. I had always wanted to make this stop. While I did homework, I cursed outloud to myself and around nobody. I said mean things to myself that I knew were not true. I needed to stop, and so I prayed about it.

When I read the Bible today, I found many wise-cracked ideas on it. I used to hear how people don't like to be told how to live. I usually didn't like it either. The verse I picked up said to live long and prosper and to develop away from evil doings. We judged and have been judged, so we could definately feel good being called nice things from doing purely good and lovely acts. I read Eccelesiastes, chapter 11, I think at Biblegateway.com!

The show must go on

I made several mistakes yesturday, and I cannot hold a quiet audience accountable for my regrets. The first thing I did was play Texas Hold Em' for about six hours straight. Actually, make that eight hours. I was having so much fun making fake money and figuring out what people's hands were without seeing them. I should not have done this because I am a student and have a priority. My priority is to serve Christ and I cannot cheat this opportunity by doing something else I shouldn't be doing.

A second mistake I made was not making deposit of $800, which I have in my wallet. I owe a family $700 because I slammed into their fender on a parking lot. I can't believe I did this stupid act! I was so tired that day and did not know what I was doing simply because I couldn't read or visualize anything complex that day.

I forgot to update my pictures and disappointed one of you, which is me. Me! Me! Me! I disappointed me! When I have time, I will place photos on this blog site. I am going to pay the family $700 next week. I am also going to stop playing Texas Hold Em' for now, even though I am very good at it. I could just play a little bit when my priorities are like super slow. That's the only time I will do it.

Writing is a natural thing for me now because I can type whatever I feel like. I could grab some more ideas by majoring as a writier, but I don't really have the time for doing that because I don't really want to. The thing that does not make me want to become a writer is that I need to please an audience I am so unsure of. If I could know this, then I would have been a writer. I could start by socializing more and joining a group that is pretty out of this world. I prefer being a job holder at a church. Despite all the beliefs people have against me, I want to be a Computer Scientist. I feel it is God's calling. Somehow, I am developing a lot stronger from being a computer science major because I am finding a greater detail of my learning disorders and life disorders.

Who Whee

The splitting headache has caused me to name today's title. I am sitting here at the computer lab right now, and it's pretty warm today. Noone is in here except for a girl and me.

This photo shows me entering a haven because all these computers are vacant. This is an unusual situation because it gets packed in here during all other quarters, especially at this time of the day.

I recently took a photo of Salloum who was taking a stroll down the vacant University quad.

Salloum had sunglasses on. He is teaching CS 365 and CS 480 right now. The best teacher for those classes. If you look closer, he is giving me a thumbs up and having a good chuckle.

Yesturday, I took a photo of a familiar friend we can all relate to somehow.

It's pretty sad I forgot this guy's name. Let me take a guess, is it Alex. That's it, Alex.

The photos take awhile and so I will work on making them work a little later today. I am busy with school today.

Tips

It's true I could be using myspace now, but I already have left an impression on myself to keep using this site. I will be posting at least once per week and at the most seven per week. If you have accessed this site with the computer you are using, you should click on the refresh button. I can now see that if I go over some things over my head the first time, then the second time things will go a lot smoother for me. I am planning on attending church a lot more now.

Golden Springs Calvary Chapel is offering Kung fu classes on Monday and Tuesday at 7 pm. No, I am not Chinese but I did get a black belt in Tae Kwon Do when I was fifteen. I hardly recall becoming competitive because I was so out of shape. I can see uploading images will take a lot of time with this server. I did pick up a book on being a webmaster and so that might help me in designing a very suitable website for everyone. I will have to work on my classes now even though I am bored of them already.

This photo was taken at the famous winery in LA County. It is only one! I took a snapshot of family and grandma (mom's side).

July 4th is over

For those who don't know yet, this is going to be the third week of school. People don't know yet that I got into a fight with a professor, HK Liu over some grading policy. He administratively dropped me because I won the argument. Oh well, I can't take him for the summer so I have been sticking around so far. I should make it out after the fall. I now have a 7.1 Megapixel digital camera from Nikon. The 7900 Coolpix is loaded with 16 scene modes and has some night vision. It features what they call D-lighting. I'm using a 512 MB SanDisk card, which is a pretty good brand and a rechargable battery with an EL prefix. I have two of those batteries. I'm going to post a picture here, this is a picture of me which my dad took a shot of at home: Hopefully this came out and it did!

How have you been

I am largely now accustomed to writing whatever is on my mind. This can sometimes be a very positive or negative thing for everyone because you don't want me to be in a bad mood. I can't really change myself into an always easy going guy anymore, as I used to. Well, I will have to believe that in loose terms because I get easily impressed. What I mean is, seeing a person show up to a meeting or event makes me happy. By phasing out a whole lot, I have caused people to lose interest in me.

I need to make up for lost time now. I can just say do this and this and try my very best but I suck at it. I need an overall good staff of leadership, if you can feel the vibe join me. I have been starving spiritually a whole lot lately from not going to church or reading the Bible enough. Patience is a wonderful thing to have for a long period of time. I failed at this because I wanted fast results. Sometimes our prayers are put on hold by God because it is inappropriate to Him. Selfish prayers are sometimes what people can wish for and try at. It's very sad that nothing can be this ultimate genie in the world. I'm sure if that were the case, the world would be nuked and resurrected for eternity. I figured out dating is not really a game, but there's one catch intimacy is a natural gift from God. Some religious folk try to remain celibate for the rest of their lives and deprive themselves of not multiplying into a few more people in this world. Fornication is an evil thing though to Christians, including lying, stealing, murdering, and cheating on relationships. Getting married for intimacy is encouraged by God. Being guys, we are the initiator and pursuer of the right woman to make our wife. Share the wealth, now because God will give us at least a pretty good calling for pursuing someone. She should be close to perfectly right. No matter what, people fail at being a perfect somebody, but it shouldn't stop us from repenting of our bad ways. God's awesome love for mankind and women caused Christ to get nailed on the cross to forgive our sins. That's what our faith is mainly about as Christians.

Hey there

I have figured out how difficult it is for a person to show up to a club where they figure nothing is being done. He or she shows this difficulty by not showing up. I had a lack of experience from the start because I never saw through a whole club. I think I have been the worst candidate for the presidential spot. Life doesn't always go my way because I make a lot of school mistakes. I took twenty units for five quarters straight, and it has been very difficult on my abilities to cope with my life. The stress level is always at its high, when I am working on delivering several demanding deadlines. I have been used to working on things at the last minute. It doesn't really show a lot of promising progress, after all.
I still figure it is up to my prayers in getting a wonderful club cultivated for a good fall quarter. I want to give up my position when I know everything has settled into a peaceful stage. It isn't up to me to blame everyone else for my problems. I have been trying to do this all along, but it instead has caused me even more grief. I hate to say this, but I love people in general. I am a little shy at girls sometimes because I do not want to offend them by acting aggressively. I believe I can be a hundred percent if I remain a confident person. By staying away from people standards and going after God's standards, I am feeling a lot better these days. Of course, we won't ever be perfect in this world but it doesn't mean we shouldn't repent and get closer to being set free with the truth of all things- life. Giving, loving, caring, and being gentle is Biblically a wonderful thing!

Club Projects

Projects have never got us anymore because noone did it. I know how hard it is for everyone to make time for one. By creating a tougher constraint on everyone, it will make this club subdued into a much smaller club. I remember giving a lot of proposals and because people were saying they were interested but not showing up, nothing really happened. It is very natural for smart people to distrust a club. All I really want to do is just do something with everyone outside of school. I am too tired of hearing about busy people telling me why they won't be able to make it. The sillier things get, the easier it becomes for people to remember. Let's be a club that doesn't lobotomize and is clear. Making the bad members, a pawn and the good ones a bishop or knight should be good enough. I want to call myself a bishop or knight too. Things should not be too silly. Thats how I am going about my life as president.

CSS is the best CS Club yet

Not many know yet that we are the best CS Club to have ever formed in the history of all schools. This is so because theoretically we open this club to anyone to come join us for down-to-earth and manly activities. Academic studies don't matter to us, leave that job to an Honor's Club. The reason why I have sucked badly is because I have never been consistent enough at doing anything. One day, I feel like being a legend and other days, I still feel like being a legend. Trying many different and uncomfortable things has caused me to develop into a less shy person. I have to thank the good parts of my lifestyle to Jesus Christ, who has answered my biggest prayers. We are going to have face it, homework drags, but we need to practice our skills on at least something.

Proposals unmade

A large reason for my failures is from not taking an active role on it. By asking busy people to help me, it really did not accomplish much. We are all very interested, I assume, because these people showed up whenever they wanted and could. It's been a very tough life, as a naive person. I do not have a lot of books and background covered to be an effective business man. I claim a lot of things about myself, when I have a lot of confidence, but this confidence in me does not last very long. I have this writer's block about studying. My intentions are to do the things I say, but I usually end up doing my routine habits. It is time for me to develop selflessly. My goal in life is to help a person in the best way I see fit. I am under assumption of lending mindful help by teaching anyone how to do a course subject, but first I have to study hard to be able to do this venerable position. The more confidence I find in myself, the better things become. This state of mind is not all about pride and being proud, but intended for remaining productive and unworn out. I think it is God's way of keeping us positively charged up. It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man - Psalm 118:7-9.

My evil acts and remaking

The reason I write about this topic is because it has made me unproductive in doing a club. It has brought me great shame and a willingness to repentance. I know I still have a long ways to go as a youngster. At the age of 12 or 13, I looked at pornographic material with past-time friends to explore the reality of sex. What brought me to greater sadness with myself was the amount of time I lost in developing into a better person. I soon discovered the feelings of lust, stubborness, and laziness. I try not to think too much about my past, anymore. After weakly accepting Christ at ten, I became confused for another decade. I could not read or write well enough anymore to suit academic studies. I had fits of rage with myself and would end up crying over feeling like nothing. This is pretty much the ugly past I have hid from everyone. After all these years, I have figured out television is basically not going to cut it. I am against those who uphold sexual impurity. Let's see where God beckons to try after with this club, this year. I'm looking at fun at CES in Las Vegas (if you can ignore bad things), trying out programming competitions again, vying for going to new conventions, and doing some professional group outings to normally fun places, like baseball games, local fairs, and arrangements for a banquet. Personally, speakers are not going to really cut it for me because we are our own speakers.

Summer Quarter

The year is closing in, now. Just another 10 weeks and then fall. Next, the year is over. I really miss Kamal, who is the co-founder of CSS. Unfortunately, I have had moments of wanting to change the name to Computer Science Club because it seemed to be a better name than CSS. I have been really overwhelmed by the lack of CS majors showing up to the past meetings. It looks like they just want to do other things, besides go to a club.

The features are my proposals and not many know about them. I never really managed to plan all of them. By considerable blessings, I have been the cook at a BBQ. Nick, a friend of mine, tells me it was very famous. I want to still do more. A former bad CSS member tells me I used to be unprofessional. It is very true the world is now overlooking computer software because of all the imperfect mistakes that have occured in the software engineering world. Some say, computer science disciplines have died from the internet stock crash. Others claim outsourcing. These events have striked fear in some of the most brilliant minds. Therefore, the people who defiantly stand against this bad tide are persecuted and become blessed with a wonderful talent.

God is weeding out the chaff of all people by encouraging believers to endorse their own persecution. We, computer scientists, are mocked and trampled on by this uncaring civilization. Those who work harder through this mess will make their way to success. We must continue to love our enemies, even though it will not seem right. The best way to defeat a bully is to show him love. Let us not drive our hearts into vengenace, but what is morally right.

Life Trials

What is pretty cool about this site is that I can also upload images. I have not been able to see these things lately. This is a very wonderful site to use for blogging because you can also edit the html code. I need to start working on the club website now.

My mind has been focused on rather interesting things that revolve around my life-making choices. Probably one of the weakest vulnerabilities I have is lusting after something I know won't be good for me. The temptation will always be there for me to turn away from God, every day of my life.

The biggest agenda in my life currently is to see that I get helped for improving my bad qualities. I have been developing a lot of opinions lately by feeling and thinking perceptually by visualizing myself in the shoes of celebrities. I must be sort of wierd for revealing this part of my life. There are some intriguing things that capture attention with television and celebrities. Did you hear about the engagement of Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes? I read Katie Holmes grew up with a poster of Tom Crusie and wanting to marry him. It seems to be a normal case for a woman to be infatuated with a handsome and charismatic man to accept all of his beliefs. A story called Angel [The Darling], a short story written by past-time author Anton Chekhov (1860-1904), underlies examples of that theme. I am going to have to underscore Tom Cruise here about scientology because it does not understand the essence of a jealous and perfect God.

Controversy is starting to become a very unhappy subject for many, especially those who are tired of bickering among each side. Tolerance of good and bad things is a norm now. It is very obvious that our human nature dwells on the knowledge of good and potential evil. Every man and woman has fallen short in trying to be perfect. I am going to have to denounce the evils in this world, and so writing a sentence is going to make me feel better.

I get to write whatever I want by blogging. It's sort of a fun thing for me. A friend of mine is slightly confused with how I never became a writer. In the world of computers, Linus Torvald created Linux. He would not have contributed a great deal without his best efforts of trying to communicate with the world. It looks like a lot of fun and dedication went into projects with Linux and so I am happy to have swept off my feet by being introduced to a Linux distribution called Suse. In this community, opinionated beliefs of what is better than what has destroyed a lot more than created. It has historically been a disaster for those Scottish men in tribes, who carouse nightly, never making a decision in how to fight a war; they were overthrown by the Roman Empire.

I think the best way for me is to do things to the best of my ability and be comfortable at it. I know how much I long for people's support. Having at least a few mighty men of valor has been encouraging enough. In this world of horrible deceptions, which run off of limited decisions and money, I can only mourn for my losses and continue hoping for the best. Pray for good things to happen for yourselves and bless others when you receive a wonderful fruit of God's making.

Missed Deadline

I have had to find some time to write for myself. Today I moved out of Bldg. 17-B because it was the deadline of my apartment's agreement. I had a lot of trouble yesturday as well. I did not know I had a lot of books and stuff to deal with all along. I had crammed all of those things in my small apartment room. What I really hated today was having to clean out the refrigerator which took some decent amount of time. I'm very upset I was unable to go see my roommate's graduation ceremony today. I was pretty mad at myself, in general.

I think life is just keep going to go on, no matter how one feels. I have cursing a lot around no one to myself lately. I don't like doing this. I am going to end it as one of my goals. I need to start facing myself. It's like the worst enemy is yourself. What goes on in your head and body is strictly up to you. I pray for all of you who will guide me to a better year of CSS.

Timing Values

Life is all about timing. The choices we make especially if we get to a high venerable position with our friends affect a lot of people. Placing a club vote can mean life and death with a policy. Responsibilities come by becoming a club officer, and it is very important to give these types of people the chance to let go of their positions and develop in the path they want to choose.

I have made many shortcomings with this club from last year. I wanted to see people come and when I did see a number of like five people show up, I did not take advantage of that time to ask for their individual experiences or expertise. I was too caught up with the future. I was unable to focus my attention on the present enough to be able to progress into it. I had a lot of thoughts accumulated, and they were probably very simple and off-centered.

There comes a moment in time where everything one places an ambition should also be seen in practical matters. The frequency of this ambitious activity will largely effect the timing of anyone's life. The summer is filled with thinkers, writers, and doers. The hardships of a tough major such as Comp Sci cause many disruptances for anyone who tries to cope with it. Noone really talks about the specific usage of Comp Sci anymore. It becomes hard to become noticable figures in the world. Other concentrations and desires cause the person to shift their focus onto other activities. The basic things in life deal with faith, love, and hope. Faith in a sense with the belief of how the world is working daily. Love in terms of respect with self and others. Hope in engagement of living daily and waking up to see you are your own individual, like seeing your hidden self without a mirror.

Honesty is not easy to come by because one falter of detail can mean the end of an organization. An organization who gets dishonest people to deal with money is not going to last very long. In generality, life is tough sometimes for people. The personal feelings become a way of life for trying to cope with it. Abnormally, happiness is envied by people. What makes life very difficult is exhaustion of doing anything, the stress level becomes a lot greater when the body does not have a lot of time to recuperate. Many have different ambitions and so when this time of exhaustion hits them, it causes them to temporarily change their way of living by talking.

Sleeping at least eight hours a night is a necessity for most of us. Without those hours, we will fall asleep in class or show up very late. We won't be able to learn and push forward with our education without sleep. Reading textbooks and on other interesting topics also become a very big issue because that period is our time of development- a moment to reflect on life. What I discovered from going on askjeeves.com with the search 'how do i read faster?' was that the brain is able to read automatically any word by looking at the first and last letter of each word. Perahps, it is because I am a good speller and pronouncer which causes me to fare very well. Others will have different ways of reading text by skimming it or reading word for word on every text.

Writing becomes a very powerful tool indeed. The confidence of a writer and his image is very important to the reader. By getting to the point in a confident way, he will attract attention. It is much like talking but in a different sense. Talking takes a lot of work and people enjoy playing jokes on each other by not exactly doing what they said they would be doing. I think people get jealous at me. It's like they squint their eyes at me and show a resentful face to me. They really abhor people who have undergone a lot of adversity and come out stronger. They see how life doesn't work for them, but it does for someone else. I actually have someone I envy and that is the vice president because of the background he has pursued. By reading up on a lot of computing for years, he is able to recall answers to a lot of basic computing questions. I wish I did that myself when I was in high school. In conclusion, all I can really say is if qualified people decide not to pursue a good cause then it is pretty much their own faulty decision.

Happy hours

A new beginning has occured for CSS because we now have Dr. Rich as our new advisor. It was very cool to see how well he responded to my request of asking him to sign the advisor application. I also had a very good response for Dr. Srinivas who I thought was a numbskull at first. He actually really cares a lot about the CS students. I have heard some very positive feedback about others who give their devotion to this club.

It's the sense of wanting to do something that caused these great people like Margarita and Mike to come to this club in the beginning. I did not know what it was all along that was supposed to draw us together. It's not all about the academics and getting people to come to the activities. It's really all about doing something together and having this great sense of achievement.

Club Priority

I can't say the amount of priority I have placed on this club but have little to show for. My mother tells me it is really hard to be a president. Being at the top position is very difficult indeed because I have to do a lot of thinking. Taking 20 units of classes was very unreasonable but I am pretty much forced to deal with it because I truly hate thinking to myself I won't graduate in four years. I know some people will be jealous if I manage to succeed at my goal. It's only very normal. I have always been scared about performing at the maximum level because I have been worried about things changing too fast. It's like a psychological fear of progressing too fast from having to dedicate a lot of time to it. This sort of developed when I had straight A's in the first year of high school and last two years in middle school. I then became faced with struggles of deciding my priority level.

It always felt like I was being held back from something. I did want to learn about computers really badly at one point and get straight A's and go to a nice school. The only scary portion about this dream was the amount of investment I would have to make. I chose to go after the short term happiness by watching television and playing computer games. I guess these things happen to many kids nowadays.

I can't really explain how people showed up to the club meeting. It was really cool to observe people coming to a meeting we absolutely did nothing in. I am very happy to be able to acknowledge the amount of support I obtained early in the year. I really became a little worn out from not understanding people's priorities. It is like everyone has different priorities with life, but the same principle remains in that the majority of us continue to show up for lectures in school.

There is always going to be a little nervousness associated with me in doing a club. Being a president and bringing in cookies was a lot of fun. When the meetings stopped occuring from people not showing up, I did not know what happened. I became very appalled and feared creating more meetings. I felt like a nobody who was just in existence and a person with a will to program anything the professor gave. I would naturally stink at working with concepts.

I did do a little research on people's learning abilities. One of these is having the skill to write. I think I characterize as a person who has a somewhat ability to play musical instruments, write, research on issues, solve problems, and program. There is something inside of me that is causing me to feel like breaking down and to make progress at the same time. It is sort of wierd in a sense. I really don't want to let go of myself and do the things that will eventually hurt me.

I have so many moments of feeling a lot of confidence. I guess it is a good thing in a sense. I have had to overcome a lot of anxieties and phobias. I was afraid of studying and reading. I have always been afraid of offending people for doing things I think are the best way for everyone.

What I realize overall is that the best communicative efforts from me caused the club to develop. It looks like communication is a very big priority in a club. It doesn't matter how others who think negatively about us feel. It's about taking care of the scope of things.

Club Prowess

Everything is coming down to the last minute because a lot of events are happening. First of all, there is a Clubs of science club banquet. I need to find some officers to attend it. Another meeting is scheduled for Tuesday, where all of the officers for the next year are supposed to attend. This becomes a very tough venture because a lot of CS majors work. I mean a whole lot of them really have jobs to think about and to deal with.

It is really understandable for these people to deal with their jobs. I finally understand a lot of these things. Working at a company will probably mean leaving for work at lunch time. Meetings are generally conducted at lunch time. I am really glad I have a vice president supporting me by doing some physical work. I can't do everything by myself anymore.

It's like thousands of ideas come out of my head at the same time, and I have to spend a lot of time filtering out the ones that won't sound very pleasing to the mass. A lot of common sense is at work here, and I am making so many mistakes on accident. It's like I lost my sensitivity with people and don't really care about them anymore. I don't understand what I had been doing wrong all this time except for now. I need to create some flyers that I can pass out by hand. I need to buy a paper slicer to make it easier for me. I have to get the printer installed on my laptop.

There really is not a lot of time left. The only way I can really set up this club for getting a stronger foundation is if I start doing the things I think up. These thoughts are what I have to write down. I do a lot of brainstorming with some cool ideas but I sometimes forget them when I become nervous around people.

Labtop Observations

It really looks like people don't really care if you bring a laptop to class. I used to not care about those people too, but now I feel very privileged because I am now going to bring my new laptop to class. The features I really like about this laptop is that it uses an NVIDIA graphics card. Finally, I get to have one for taste. For the first time, I never knew I could connect to the internet at my home which I know doesn't have a cable connection. I must be intruding on some neighbor's speed. That was really cool to feel that I am getting the internet for practically free. I am glad my dependencies with AOL are now over. As an internet newbie, I thought nothing came better than AOL but all of that stuff comes from doing hard work and searching. People can use Yahoo Chat or something else on the internet without worrying about those boring chatrooms.

I remember suffering so much by just going into a chatroom and staring down the text. I was really shy and could not even break out of my shell in a chatroom. I know that was pretty pathetic. I have always been so concerned about how people would think about me. It's like I am really sensitive about doing a really bad thing that might offend someone. When I get angry though, I don't think I become that person anymore. It's like my thoughts are focused on something that I feel is unfair. I really don't know what goes on with the other person I am intelligently attacking. In a way, it feels like I become a very smart person in a quantitative amount as Hulk has. When Hulk gets madder, he keeps smashing but I don't I just keep thinking harder.

Mind Wandering

I have been mind wandering extravagantly for the past week. Doing some calculations with all the hours from Thursday to Sunday starting at 6 pm, I have accumulated 60% of my time into mind wandering. If I had never recorded the things I had done, then I would never have noticed the amount of attention deficit activities I did.

A friend tells me I am placing a lot of focus into studying because I am preparing for the finals already. To be truthful, I really don't know what week we are in. I'm just starting to do so because I have a lot of interest in balancing my interests of studying and personal matters.

It feels like my brain shuts down at around the night, but I still have to keep going until my personal energizer bunny decides to stop drumming. That would be at midnight where I become fast asleep.

Something to let off my chest

I really have too many concerns about my image. Seems like I judge my image off of the amount of support I obtain. I think I am going to have to let my personal opinions not really reflect on how people feel about me. It's like we are all entitled to personal opinions. Business or academic wise, we should be judged based upon our past experiences. Other professionals can predict a model of feasibility based upon the personal interview, resume, and possibly GPA.

I can't really over emphasize the GPA value because some say it doesn't really show you what kind of stuff you've done in the real world. All those projects could be explained to the employer in my opinion. If you communicate well about what your program does, then I guess it will flow well. I'm thinking about programming a logically unbreakable calculator and number speller. It's basically a normal calculator with a spell button. I'm going to put it on a GUI and let the user put in a regular expression or whatever compiler concepts I can get my hands on. I believe this will give me a challenge in all sorts of disciplines.

If someone tries to break my code, then I can also work on security as well. I can care about a lot about what businesses are partially concerned about because I am proposing on copy righting this program and possibly distributing it freely to everyone interested in breaking my pending spelling calculator. I have the simple algorithm already to spell up to an infinite amount of numbers without the commas included. I think I will be doing more error handling to make people think I rigged this program so that I can coin it the unbreakable calculator.

Club Photos and T-shirts and miscellaneous

The club window is dying from all the package tape I put on it. The residue is still there even after removing it. The club window is so outdated. Where is the current culture in it? Everyone else has been putting pictures together and using it to advertise themselves. We should do this as well. I do have a cheesy pocket camera, and I regret having thrown away the box which sheltered it. I should have kept all of that stuff together.

Looks like I'm the only one who knows what to do around here. The T-shirts will never happen without me reminding everyone what to do. Looking online, we should have a good enough deal to be evenly funded by the club. I'm going to make orders on number of T-shirts for people who show up! Members get it for free and anyone else interested is going to have pay 5 dollars. This is because these people are half-minded about this club.

If they would like to join us for cooler events like Speedzone then they are going to have to cough up another 5 dollars. We could do camping at the mountains or at a beach. There are several options, now come to think of it.

Tough Times

Looks like I missed the deadline again. This time I bought myself a labtop for $800. It's not a really bad one, I would say. It has wireless connection to the internet which is really cool. I'm still dealing with an AMD XP processor. I guess it's so-so overall. By adding $239 at Fry's, I ordered this laptop to go under five years of warranty. I know it sounds pretty odd, but the explanation for it is that in like four years a $800 labtop will be replaced with today's higher-end models. Basically, remind myself to exercise a warranty on this labtop after four years.

The feelings don't look too good for me right now. I feel really baffled by my emotions. I guess I don't mind talking personally to people. I feel a whole lot better these days when I engage in some good conversations. It does not necessarily have to be about myself. Writing is something I've been doing a whole lot lately. I don't really know what the cause is for it.

Hard work is a lot harder to accomplish than it seems. It also shows in my perspective that I don't really appreciate the amount of hard work some events get. So why would I work so hard then? Well, it just seems right to work hard and at the same time, morally just to not to brag about hard work.

I'm pretty much at the end of the straw with wanting to watch steamy and erotic movies. I remember struggling really badly six or seven years ago. Nowadays, I'm realizing how big of a dummy I was to think about perverted things. I'm through with advocating leisure time with those movies!

Have a lot to say

It looks like I forgot to mention about the food part with Poker Movie Night. We had enough food to last a whole night with 10 people according to Kevin. This time I want to bring two saucy dips so the game will have encourage more players at the table. We had potatoe and tortilla chips being eaten, but the danish crossiants were not eaten. I am going to have those at the meeting on Tuesday.

I want to try out the extra buttery popcorn this time. The original secret popcorn tasted a little nasty, but the package became stolen to my surprise. I think someone who visited the kitchen must have thought I left it there for giving it away. It was pretty interesting to see how people will actually steal when no one is looking.

The flyers have sent out a message. I intend to post all of my flyers on the club window for a display of history because that is what has defined us. The flyers say a lot about this club because it has been created by me. Being a president and sensitive person, sometimes I forget how much work I put into carrying a good image for myself. There comes a moment in life where you don't really care what happens to you anymore and just want to get some purely good stuff done.

Regardless of what people say and do, I have made some negative judgements to the majority of them because I see it as their lack of concern. It must be like you have to be in someone's shoe to understand the situation. I don't know why I don't draw myself near to people as much as I should do.

There's been a confusing history about me in relationships with people. First of all, I did get by high school by saying less than a thousand words on its premise. By not communicating how I was feeling, most of the time I felt like a giant melting pot. I did not know how to go about solving many of my issues but felt I could at the same time. I kept on studying myself over all things by thinking about everything I was doing. My mind would fall fast asleep on many occasions of trying to pick up knowledge from a textbook.

I then became extremely stressed out. Not knowing what to do here, I was faced with the dilemma of sticking with the happy past or progressing into a scary future. I became xenophobic because my father and mother would put out their temper on me for not living up to their expectations with me. All along, I was worried about how people felt about me. I felt I was not worthy enough to be a person who communicated to others. I would be jealous at those who raised their mouths and stood up for what they believed in. I also would be angry if classmates did not repeat their acts which made me laugh or happy.

I would shift blames on people when I felt like a failure. All of these things with a disappointing grade turnout in high school brought me to an all-time low. In conclusion, I can see where my pity lies with me. At the same time, angry has driven me to think about my ambitions or concerns with life. Of all things, I would firstly love to be able to apply the controversial Bible into my life. My thoughts about my belief in Jesus Christ has stuck with me ever since 12th grade. It's brought a metamorphism I cannot explain to my life. It is like I have great moments of feeling appreciated by God. My life has been about turning the tables around, as Marcio Corona explains. Santipheap observed how I had changed from a lazy student into an 'A' student. I have given life nothing but my very best. For all that, things have gone wrong in several occasions. All I have to blame is myself and be angry with my failures of being an expectantly moral man and spreading the words of how Christ saved us from pains of doing lifelong sins.

Blog Maintenance

I was unable to log in before the deadline of Friday. So I am doing it today for Sunday. I am dealing with boisterously ambivalent emotions because the CS club has been so unsuccessful in getting people to show up at events. These events are a lot of fun to be around.

It was great to have four of us gather and play poker at the Poker Movie Night. Unfortunately we had no movie set up because Kevin wanted to watch some anime. Memories will last after last night. It was funny to see Vern walk down the stairs for two stories by looking at the windows. He let us in from the back.

What I intend to do is to make Poker Movie Night a weekly activity. Without Kevin, I am afraid I cannot do anything related to CS Club. He has been my wing of assistance. I plan on creating a dumb poster and posting it on the lobby's entrance so people will know about us. I will then take it down.

Club Cliques

This is the end of Week 6 and it looks like not a lot of CS majors are going to be a part of this club. The best things to do is to just keep creating flyers and getting the ideas done. Regardless of the number of people who show up, it is about the quality and not the quantity. Being a club president to a young club is a very stressful business because others generally do not have the demand to give their efforts to what they believe will stay a small cause. This brings me some anger because I know I can make this club a big thing.

The vice president and I are the only ones who have done the most work. I have not received any good responses from others because they have their sights on some other things. It is true I have been sleeping mentally on all the club things, but I cannot give up and believe the show is over. No matter what happens, the show must go in for this club.

The honor's president started crying in his own shoulder because no one showed up for the Friday's meeting. The emotions create a rough ride because the experiences are not easy to comprehend or deal with. CS majors generally do not care but the few in my club are wonderful supporters to whatever cause I have been trying to do. Rationality tells me to quit but my habits are to never quit no matter what until it is the end.

Life does not just end and a strong will does not just go away. Hard work combined with consistency ensures a strong club. The hardest things take us out into going after the easiest things which seem to be good. CS Club is trying with all its might because the will of the president exists. The president is no figure head because he is trying to make everything happen. Last year's president has given up the sights of this club.

The head chair does not believe this club will be a strong one. The majority of CS majors will never be a part of something so good and wonderful as the CS Club. It is a shame to know people cannot sense the best things in life because they prefer being in a socializing mood among others. Some prefer to show off more than others. Some lead themselves straight to a sinful stage in life.

Not many cannot see the awesome light of believing in Jesus Christ, nor will they ever will. It is not a sense of pessimism but mourning truth. A lot of people will die and be thrown into the lake of fire. I must not become frustrated and win at this game of succeeding a club. The dirty work has stayed rotten for CSS, now CS Club, because programmers formed it and all I remember being told was not much from last year's president.

It's like the cold cycle will repeat itself. We elect a new president and vice president and only to have it been done with the consent of the president and small group of people meeting. Nothing was ever done because the meetings were only composed of speakers who said stuff that I don't remember.

We all must act and knock out other clubs who try to harm our status. It's only a game of captialism and no physical lives are at stake here. This is very ethical in a sense because America was designed to be voiced with opinions. Opinions formed in truth are the best to consider because they have formed this country all along. Despite all the negative views of politicians, the Americans who say them do not get anything done and eventually compromise with it. They are the dumb folks.

It is time for me to do everything that is good and in my power to serve the almighty God. I owe everything to Him for all good things I have accomplished. Without the sense of stability and stronger vocabulary build, I will never become a gem of communication. This is my first year where I take everything which I have written into consideration. For the Lord God, I offer my services without any compromise.

Thursday Help Sessions

I am happy to be the first to announce the very first CS Club Help Session. This is to be done on Thursdays weekly during the University Hour. Oh wow, this is so awesome because this means we could have Dr. Salloum sit in at this room during his office hours. I am going to e-mail him right now because he will be so delighted to help out.

The reasoning behind this is club members have a hard time in some of their classes. Having a friend help you out is a big motivation to do your work. Communication is key in developing your ideas into a stronger scientist!

Thoughts circulating CS Club

It looks as though people do not care to show up. The best thinking to do is to believe people will come. What made me angry was feeling the thought that CS majors would be making fun of the CS Club themselves and try to go about things with the way the world is. I intend to beat the negative thoughts about this CS Club.

I remember being a fan of the CSS (Computer Science Society) from last year. It was great to attend those meetings and go with the downfall of it. I was happy that a president was willing to nominate me to become next year's president. I became really energetic about this whole thing. It was surprising to see how I was filibustering the whole meeting most of the time because I became absolutely anxious to try to make this the best as possible.

The following topic is on CS majors and it relates to club negatives because I am profiling the typical CS major so that we can have further discussions on who we are.

Some days, the feeling went away and I became just like any other ordinary CS major. I was struggling with my work, in other words. The phenomenon of CS majors is quite a simple thing to see because resources and time is the most precious to them. There comes a moment in everyone's life where a person must battle with interests and decide on how to take the route.

I remember talking to people who changed their majors from Computer Science, and some of those reasons did not make a whole lot of sense. Why should one change majors just simply because of not enough money or job opportunity? The dilemma occurs in how it feels like the media and the world is bashing on this subject, but in its entirety people can change their impression with any subject by taking a look at the other's composure. The loud-mouthed individuals of CS should basically be smarter and that will cause people to study harder because everyone builds their motivation or influences off of each other.

Unfortunately, trying your hardest is sometimes not good enough. Other resources, such as communicating your thoughts becomes very useful. It is quite the blessing to have a knowledgable person give meaningful advice. The BBQ was a huge success and it would never have happened without the help of Cass. In a very fast paced world, people generally do not have enough time to decipher all the wonderful idioms that come out of our mouths. It is quite the shame because some share very meaningful symbols to us.

Making changes in our lives is a very tough thing to do. Believing in someone to make that happen is great, but the ultimate lies not in yourself. Our best beliefs are what shape this world to our perspectives and that provides us with very truthful lives. This has of course been a historical debate between many philosophers. It is a sense of listening and getting a good idea out of it that helps us see the wonderful and bad things. I personally found Jesus Christ in my life and not the ones found with Book of Mormon or any other, so New King James Version, King James Version, English Standard, or New International Version is what I try to learn daily.

From hearing about the Bible in several occasions, it looks like humanity symbolizes as a fragile piece of rock because any one has capacity with being chaotic. The domain of perfection is found in God who sent His son Jesus Christ to die for all of our regrets, pains, and ignorances that caused others harm. It caused what I would like to call a super nova in the spiritual body where angels and demons battle for order vs. chaos. The hidden theory behind it comes from Christology (study of Jesus) where the field claims the death of the one and only perfect God, Jesus Christ, caused a counter effect to God's vision of destroying people and the Holy Spirit entered into our lives to convict us of our guilts and give us a form of calling to be right with God, upon believing in Jesus Christ. It is quite a comprehendible story surrounding words of insurmountable wisdom. Perhaps, in a simulated setting where everything is in context with our lives, a single command in the Bible that tells us how we should live will probably serve up an eternity of debates from opposers. I would like to see a nonbeliever try to disprove my claim by looking at 100% accurate context of the Bible, but it will never happen.

Anger can be useful if one does not basically sin because it can help you act upon finding your pure and good ambitions and is found in the scriptures, paraphrasing, be angry but don't sin.

Software Engineer Job Title

SOFTWARE ENGINEER Description:
Rockwell Collins Inflight Entertainment Systems requires a software engineering professional to provide software design, implementation, testing and maintenance of software applications written in C++ and VB on a windows platform in an embedded system.

Duties/Responsibilities:
Ensure compliance with program/product requirements as reflected in design plans
Responsible for troubleshooting problems with existing software and developing new software as needed
Perform other related duties as assigned
Candidate must have effective oral and written communication as well as good interpersonal and team skills. Experience with MS SQL Server is a plus.Qualifications:Candidate must have a Bachelor's Degree in Computer Science.

TO APPLY: visit our website at www.rockwellcollins.com

First impressions:
It looks like a job for a two year degree holder. It looks like something a CS major could fall back on if everything else goes wrong. Stability of this job is quite a question. The job certainly seems to not be a very feasible position being that our school is java-oriented. C++ and VB are two high level languages that have been upgraded to .NET technology already so it is not so certain if this company will still offer the same job description. Going along mainstream, stability is definitely with the position of system analyst or business analyst. It uses a lot of Microsoft and I'm feeling a lot of companies want more breathing room capability out of their employees.
There is possibility of having a joy ride by using VB, a drag and drop, and more readible language. Being at the front seat of a software application seems to be a lot of fun, but these kinds of jobs are not meant for everyone. In the engineering biz, each degree holder becomes their own businessman/businesswoman where a possibility of relocations and less favorable positions occur. That is why sticking with the CS Club might actually be advantageous in providing the members an environment to practice their ideas. There will always be a risk but everyone starts off somewhere. Politics will become a bigger name of the pot for those who decide to take the uncertain route. Chances are, your presumptions of the world are too insufficient to even try to develop but we all never said we can't judge it!

Personal Job Rating: 6.5 / 10

CS Club Opinion

It has been pretty hard to figure out what makes a clubber tick. Many ideas have come across ever since, but the most effective ones have come from those who know what has to be done. For example, Cass is a former club council member somewhere and with her advice that was given to the VP and me, we were able to start up the club again. My findings are pretty clear:
people basically have a life. No matter how one asks people to help out with the club, if there is no good reason by common sense then you can kiss their help goodbye.

My method is simply put three things:

1.) Let a person know why you can't get a task done.
2.) Give out the details about benefits that the task will do.
3.) Never tell a person to do more than one thing at a time because people generally need to have a life.